Wednesday, December 9
Labels: poly life:(ever since e beginnin ive entered rp..i always detested ppl who hav to use 'resources' to get work done..i dun uderstand why do they hav to take references when they hav e time n capabilities to do a gd one tat belongs to themselves alone..whenever im e one compilin work ive always hated ppl who send me their frens slides n tell me its done by them..lik come on lah u dun even bother readin thru e slides much less change stuffs tat wil giv u away..if u wan it tis way n insist its done by u then fine..ill juz copy n paste into ours..but wat kind of shit are u givin me..readin off e slides durin presentation as thou its e first time ure seein it-.- srsly dun mention copyin few slides..even if its juz 1 simple sentence tats copied into it..e ppt slides done up wouldnt fully belong to us alr much less e grades we get..if its a C u wil tink tat is not wat ive deserved for my standard..yet if its an A then srsly do u tink tat grade even belongs to u??despite my many protests to my team members regardin tis issue..i noe they stil do read their frens stuffs' to get an idea wat to do..but i juz giv them e benefit of e doubt n trust tat at e very least they didnt copy from it used their own ideas..but ive alr done wat i could n said wat i needed..wat else can i do anymore since they are determined tat its e best way for them..but im stil very grateful for them to try to avoid lettin me see it..althou theres no point hidin cuz its freakin obvious okay!!?anw ive finally succumbed under 'pressure' by my team on monday when all they had was 'resources'..i knew for myself tat even if they didnt wanted to do i could hav done up a completely new slides by myself for all of us..but since they alr had e slides n ready to sent me..then so be it ill juz choose to not say anything then..anw we were given a limit of 10 slides so aft minusin e cover, contents and thank you slides..we were left wif 7 n theres a gal who actually sent me 4 of her (friend's) slides n asked me to copy n paste into it..wow now i wonder wats gonna happen to e other 3 ppl in my team..anw i kinda did some arrangements n stuffs then off we go to present..i gav all e 7 slides for them to present..leavin e cover n contests for myself onli..not tat i wana make myself look 'pitiful' as some might tink..but i realli wan no part in e 'copied n pasted' ppt..i noe not all are lik tis..bearbear did up e 2 slides on his own n shared it wif joy..for tat im realli grateful at least i noe theres still someone workin alongside wif me..its juz e integrity part of myself tat i couldnt bypass..i guess theres juz too much pride in me..i know there isnt onli black n white in e world..but e least we can do is to minimise e grey areas instead of manifestin them..i felt realli disgusted in e inside of me when i was compilin e stuffs they sent me..i cant believe aft all ive said to ppl n all ive done to prevent such matters in happenin in my team..im doin e exact actions tat ive detested so much..at tat moment i realli felt lik i could juz break dw in tears n let go..but i chose to keep in all within me til i reached home cuz i realli dun wan my emotions to further affect them..i can alr tell tat many ppl are shocked by my sdn quiet-ness..but oh well e impact is done..ive cried n got over n done wif it..e onli thing i can do now is just do my best to prevent frm such things to happen agn..
