~held in Christ love~

update!

2011-03-19T01:22:00.000+08:00

updated =)

aft so long.....

2010-06-15T00:20:00.006+08:00

its been so long since ive posted smth here.. in a rollercoaster ride for quite awhile alr.. but still..

IM HERE!!

n im gone~

til nxt time ^_^

last day of freedom -.-

2010-04-14T15:54:00.002+08:00

using ian korkor's com now=D cant believe its e last day of holidays now.. wanted to sleep in e whole day but God has planned otherwise for me (: i was prayin ytd if someone asked me back to sch i would hav went since ive nth btr to do at home.. and i needed to reformat my com but lazy to wait alone.. 2hrs hav gone by n im still waitin-.- but still tks God n ian so tat i hav a fully functional com to use tmr.. hahaha =D

anw its e last day of holidays alr.. cant believe time flys by so soon.. meetin new class n new ppl tmr.. hope it will be a pleasant experience thou i guess it would be btr not to commit myself.. givin my trust to others will onli result in me bein hurt..

most imptly.. WELCOME IAN KORKOR TO RP!! prayin tat it wil be an awesome next 3years for u =D

soulsilver!!~

2010-04-01T23:59:00.004+08:00

Pokemon Soul Silver!!

Praise the Lord for the overflowing blessings in my life that wat i asked for is freely given.. no questions asked!!

n tks daddy~ when all i wanted was 5mins to check out the price so tat i can start savin up.. n he took out his wallet n told me to take e game i wanted!!

...

2010-02-16T23:21:00.004+08:00

i am...

always at there

yet...

never in there

so 'happenin'

haha.

zh kor is awesome~

2010-02-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

tks for e advice given..it realli meant alot to me..kinda helped me esp at times when im startin to lose faith n etc..juz thanks man (:

-.-

2010-02-02T23:59:00.006+08:00

juz lik u.

you just have to be a liar.

realli dissapointed when it came frm ur mouth..

i didnt chose tis path..

u were e on who pushed me into a dead corner ):

exercise~

2010-01-27T23:52:00.004+08:00

lol hardcore exercisin today!!!

went joggin in e morn wif dear darren!! then after a meal of macdonalds breakfast.. went for swimmin wif janine!! but still.. met up wif jon n eileen for movie in e evenin.. after e popcorn n stuffs entered my mouth.. all effort are gone T.T

Jesus!! wheres my motivation to exercise!!? come on ppl.. ask me out!! i nid to lose weight =.=

daddy is home~

2010-01-19T23:30:00.005+08:00

woots!! daddy is back after 2wks le!! yay!!

bought me a new necklace.. which is realli a shock for me.. in a pleasant way.. cus its a cross!! try uploadin e pic nxt time.. haven took a pic of it yet =.=

okies.. i realli duno wat to type.. til nxt time~

updatin in process~

2010-01-18T17:24:00.004+08:00

been asked to update.. so here it is~

late post~

2010-01-17T02:18:00.003+08:00

opps hihi people!! haven been bloggin for lik super long alr..eh eh eh i got official reason okay!!? fine i admit e 1st week is i no mood thou theres quite a few things happenin ard me..but e second week was cuz my com broke down..n it has been reformatted!!! arghh freakin irritated..but oh well nvm tat can wait..hav a short update of wats been happenin for e past 2weeks then=P

3movies in 2weeks..am i crazy?? i doubt so but anw..watched 'sherlock holmes' on 5th of jan wif janine jon eileen n linda..cele janine's 21st b'dae too (: then went for 'old dogs' wif app n zh kor on 7th..hahaha i cant believe 8days onli gav 2stars for e rating..its super funny!! n tks zh kor for pickin me up frm sch n sendin me home aft e movie:D n lastly watched 'hear me' on e 14th..oh man its so super touchin lorrr..tink its e best among all 3 tat ive watched^^ thou id advice those who cant stand non-action movies to skip it cuz its kinda silent wif majority in sign language onli or even boring if u cant stand e quietness..for me its e emotions tats more impt than e actions..n tis movie rocks (:

anw i tink many ppl noe bout my self-declared hols tis week..yea rite i frm monday pon til thurs..n i super regretted goin on fri!! shld hav juz not go sch for e whole week!! haiz oh well i guess wats done cannot be undone..same goes for my com..

i sent it down to HP service centre last mon n was 'hinted' by someone aft 2mins of 'chat' tat if e prob was caused by myself i would need to pay for e services n reformat my com myself! then a guy called me up e next day tellin me i needed to reformat my com..but they wil be doin it for me..srsly cant they speak proper english or at least employ a certain english-speaking person to be specially in-charged of e calls..anw tat guy admit tat it was caused by their products n nth to do wif me..lik wat e.. excuse me ive got loads of impt data inside n now ure tellin me everything wil be gone!!?

oh well no choice alr to get my com back tats e onli way..so congrats me for losin everything in my com..my sem1 stuffs my sem2 stuffs..all my photos tat haven been uploaded..means ive got to reinstall all e nonsense n etc..anw i got it back on wed n had to spent few wasted hours configurin e com settings b4 realisin i gotta reformat e shit when i went to sch on thur to settle tis com to be configured to sch..

haiz anw ive been super broke recently..firstly my allowance tis mth has been cut due to a stupid reason similar to wat happened last year..juz tat last year was juz 1 person n seein tat he is a bastard i hav no choice but to treat it as a bad debt..but tis time round its 3ppl n more than 5x of wat tat bastard's bad debt worth..to be very honest i dun even hav min. $20 in my acc to withdraw frm atm..n my wallet has 1 red note n nth else..all to last til tuesday when daddy comes home..haiz even then i also duno how to ask for such a favour..seein tat ive nv ever done tis in my whole life..maybe ill juz starve til sch ends everyday b4 goin home to eat..even so my ezlink also needs to be topped up soon..dun expect me to walk frm woodlands to amk..haiz tryin period for me now >.<

lastly im stil physically sick ever since last last tuesday..down wif flu n cough n sore throat..pray tat i recover soon..n psychologically i hav a feel tat its comin soon..again..isit my prob tat its comin back to haunt me?? i realli duno! can onli wait n see how things goes~

happy new year~

2010-01-02T00:00:00.007+08:00

hihi (: guess wat am i doin now?? alterin a new blogskin's codin thou im kinda not willin to do so since i feel tat tis skin is alr nice enough wif no changes needed..oh well maybe ill see how it goes ltr if i realli see no pt in continuing then u guys would hav to look at tis skin til i get e time n feel ba:P
anw seein tat today is a new year n all..perhaps ill do up a post as inspired by darren siying n ning..pray tat i wun miss anyone who deserves word of thanks frm me..n for e first time im not gonna use any nicks..thou i doubt many ppl reads tis blog since it was abandoned near a year n newly revived-.- but its my thot tat matters, aint it^^

dearest family:

daddy n mummy,
althou there are minor issues between us here n there thru' out e year..but all things works out best for us in e end..i realli feel tat our closeness is smth tat many teens n their parents dun hav..thanks for always being there for me so i can share my problems wif both of u..even thou u all dun realli get it sometimes..but more imptly is to let u noe wats goin on in my life..no worries tat ill be OB alrite (: no words can exchange my love for both of u..as always <3

eugene bj glenn einar,
kinda busy tis year tat i didnt realli meet up much wif u four..but u hav always been in my heart regardless wat happens to me n every decision i make..thanks for being my irritatin lil bros who always call me out randomly..east coast cycling n chill..grandma hse to relax..it realli takes matters off my mind even if i had a bad week..but stop teasin me bout my height..im e elder one here afterall!!

jordan n julian,
its been a reckless year for both of u huh?? i guess its e rebelious teens period for u 2..thanks for e chance for bein ur elder sis..althou at times when u all call me near midnite to talk..my advice might not be much help but i meant it..even thou u 2 dun realli put them into actions but im glad u remembered my words..can always call me if u nd someone..my hse door is always open for u to stay(:

n etc...

my siblings-in-christ:

Pastor Julia, Pastor Prince n Pastor Ben n many many more..
thanks for spreadin e gospel into my life n feedin me e overflowing honey n tat impacted me so hard n bought me out of my adversities..its AWESOME havin u as my pastors!! no words can express my ___.

dare - e.o.c:

linus n darren n sara..
thanks for being my first frens in church tat i knew 2 years ago..i realli cherished tis Godly frenship n to date onli u 3 kinda knew my past..even thou we kinda drifted apart *ahem* sara *ahem* tis year..but its gd tat we still keep in contact n great fun wii-ing..realli miss e days when we juz hang out frm morn to nite:D

siying n mindy.. yanping n yinlin too..
u joined e grp when we were about to move on to arrow alr tat we didnt hav much chance to bond..thanks to u for suggestin n plannin e many outings b4 jc started..it was realli God's grace tat i got to know u all..filled my days when i needed progs:P stil rmb e days when a 'stranger' brings a 'chio' fren along for outings :D

arrow-cg:

erin..
thanks for being my befriender when i first entered cg..althou u were busy wif ur own stuffs all time goes by..but still u were e one who led me into e cg..i realli felt reassured wif u ard even if u dun feel it (:

janine n jon..
thanks for bein e first 2 ppl talkin to me in cg..i wonder i shld say its gd 'bless' or nt-so-gd 'bless' to be in e same grp as me..but it was awesome talkin to u 2..stil rmb jon's suepr random qns..'how many ppl hav u dated b4??' ROFL~

janine aka shifu de shifu..victor aka shifu..jon william bram..
its was e guitar-ing sessions tat realli bought me into e cg..lookin forward to them tat made me excited for meetin up for arrow n etc..thanks for bein part of e grp n toleratin my rate of learnin :P

uncle andy..
thanks for draggin me out to study nearly everyday last sem n tis sem..if not for e hours stayin aft sch..i wouldnt hav done any of it at home alone..much less get e grades of 3.5 (: come out more often!!! dun keep work work work!!!

bridget joan tsuting debra eilene alena huiling glendon benjamin christon n etc..
thanks for being in tis cg as part of my second family..all e outings n events tat u all planned..realli love ur presence for lightin up my life n showin me tat arrow could be as happenin as dare :DD

agape kidz:

tchr janet..
ur hearty laughter is smth i realli miss since move on to faith kids..its been my pleasure working under u..thanks for being a great leader in my life..i do still rmb e things u shared wif me in e beginnin of e year..kinda changed my outlook in life n e way i handle things..thanks for makin a positive change in my life :)

team B (my first team <3):

tchr george n christabel..

thanks for bein so tolerant wif me n teachin me how to work in e children church when i juz started servin..e yummy food prep early in e morn onli for team B..e chats bout e culinary lessons tchr christabel went..e stories bout u 2 goin ard e world..its been fun workin wif u all..n a blessin to receive tchr george's emails :)

tchr noelle n e team!..

thanks for e stuffs u were sharin tat realli impacted me..ure truely a woman of God..seein u handle e kids n etc..its e anoitin in u tat draws e team close tgt..

team A:

tchr michelle^^ hahaha n whole team too..

started servin near every week n soon got to know u all..thanks for being such an awesome team tat makes me wana wake up earlier despite not bein my week:P e time when we realli got closer was durin e bukit timah climb..e joy when we hit e summit aft e numerous games play along e way..n e sharin session at e end too..it was truely a blessin frm God to be placed in e same week as u all (: ps. benjin!! ill call u when i lose my way in orchard alrite!!?

team C:

tchr betsy n e team..

thanks for makin me feel part of ur team thou i kinda crash into it:P its been wonderful servin wif u all n e love for e kids frm u all (:

team R:

big boss maureen..

ure truely a woman of God..e way u speak impacted me in a way much more than u expected..thanks for being our big boss in e admin team n toleratin my nonsense..yea i noe it is alrite..its been a great year servin wif u in tis team n i dun wan it to end..wish to be in tis team til e end of time :D *shouts to tchr marcus!!* "copy paste!! dun cut n paste!!"

tchr lynn..

thanks for being there always..e revelations u share n ur experiences tat u've gone thru..they are realli life-changin..thou at times i doubt u noe..but e things u say are so filled wif jokes..

louisa aka app..

thanks for being my app..its been a fun-filled year servin wif u..n e teasin too~ sittin wif u n ur dg for 3rd..goin for dinners n shoppings..n e many craps tat we are talkin n doing..oh oh n dun shy e next time anyone kiss u okay!!? hahaha :D

dione..(put u in here first ba..since ure comin team R soon~)

thanks for being my partner-in-crime in teasin louisa..its been super fun havin u ard :D

charis..

thanks for always being there..i see u almost very week wakin up early n comin to serve e 1st service n studyin durin e 2nd service despite ur 'a' lvl comin round e corner..e Lord sees ur heart in servin n im sure it wil be reflected in ur results as done in Jesus' will :D

zhengheng dashaoye..

thanks for servin out of rest despite e 'temporary' medical condition in u at tat time n fully healed now! its been awesome servin tgt..n tks for e ride home too~

n e entire team..

thanks for being in tis team tgt buildin rock solid kidz in His love..n more imptly e receivin of our Father's love in us (: lookin forward to another awesome year servin tgt in beloved n treasured :D

proggers:

karen..

thanks for bein an awesome ic for 'His power; your hands'..u realli lead us well on track n e many stuffs..u showed me how outspoken can a person be n not shy away frm e stage..i realli look up to u as a leader who taught me loads..not onli did we benefit e clients by plannin tis event..being in proggers is an awesome thing itself alr :D

benjamin ian jzeying samantha jeremy claire..

thanks for bein in proggers n plannin 'His powers; your hands'..it was realli unmeritted favor to be in e team wif all of u:) pray tat we can work tgt tis year if there is a similar event agn :D

events 4:

alice, kevin, kevin agn, n etc..

thanks for toleratin my consistent curfews tat stands in e way of meetin up..i trust tat its God's plan for me to be in e team despite tis not being wat i signed up for..n sry for e inconvenience tat i hav caused -.-

pri sch - townsville:

melvin wayne jolene..

thanks for everything..no words is needed btw us (: u noe i noe can alr^^

sec sch - gy:

lihua joy siting..

thanks for e random outings when we go out tgt for movies n etc..thou each of us are gettin busier wif our sch work n etc recently havin no time to meet up..but at least we hav been keepin in contact thru msn n etc..lets find a day n meet up soon alrite^^

chorlin violet chunhui yilong weixin sherman..

thanks for being my squadmates even up til now..althou 'they' hav been dissapointin but it was still great fun when we went back ain't it :P but still lucky we dun hav to face them anymore :D

wenhao..

thanks for keepin in contact n updatin me bout e nonsense goin on stil..its great knowin my cadet haven forget bout me n willin to share his probs wif me:P dun tink too deeply into those depressin stuffs alrite?? it wil all come to pass one day..juz concentrate on ur 'o' tis year n giv it ur all :D

w35k:

joyce..

thanks for being a funny classmate to me in sem1..e 'quarrels' we hav bout bbt n flh..e agreements we hav bout zjsg..u always update me bout it n then we go crazy bout it tgt:P its been fun havin u ard :)

meihsien paulene trevor david etc..

thanks to you all for intro-ing me to tis brand new poly life..miss e rowdy n noisy class when we can fool ard wif no bars hold..funnn~

w47b:

ningning n timtim..

thanks for providin me a teasin target in sem2:P its been a fun term havin u 2 ard:D last long long kay!!? ^^

qiwei jj edmund ivan jsen..

thanks for being my partners-in-crime gossip-ing ard..so many hilarious moments while we're jokin n playin:DD n 'thanks' for pokin me lorrr -.-

joy jon jan yenny n adam..

thanks for providin e comedy effect everytime in class (: talkin to joy n adam wakes my laughin acupoint..talkin to jan n yenny bout e class couple n lookin at their reactions can make me rofl~ jon's actions alone is hilarious enough LOL

n last but not least:

to him..

i doubt u even noe i meant u..i would hav known u for 5years in 1day's time..dun wana delve into e details..thanks for being part of my life for e past half decade n givin me e memories tat are unforgettable..its time tat i juz keep them in my heart n let u exit my life for someone else alr...

alrite i noe i skip many ppl n cut short many details esp when nearin e end..ill come back to tis post to edit it agn tmr when i can find e time..but i gotta go to bed alr since i gotta wake up at 10 tmr (more lik today) n its lik 6.30am now-.- yes..i used 6hrs to type tis whole chunk!! >.<

mathes tutorial~

2009-12-30T23:54:00.003+08:00

went for mathes tutorial today morn at 10am..e timin is lik so omg lah freaking early sia..n its so far away frm my bed tat i nd to leave home 1hr prior to get there..supposed to meet bearbear at 9.45am at bukit gombak stn..but 'not-so' suprisingly both of us are late so we met up wif ning n timtim too..or rather more lik we 4 all turn up at e same time outside e stn..took a bus now to e centre..bearbear was supposed to e button to stop e bus de..but luckily he onli bothered to talk to us so he forgot to press it n we nd to take an extra stop..n tks to e extra stop tat saved us frm walkin cuz blk539 was rite infront of us=P

onli we 4 jacob n yenny was there..dun understand wats up wif my tis super 'non-enthu' class..chalet gt fun they dun wan come nvm..its their studies at stake there n they wanna miss it..haiz suit themselves i guess cant be bothered le..anw went to lot 1 for lunch at pizzahut then went home..srsly look at e four of us juz now..ning n timtim was e ones who had e party animal look..but its them who wana go home first leavin me n bearbear sayin we wana hang out more..waaa goin out wif them realli no fun de haiz..in e end bear went home..ning went to timtim hse..left me to fend for myself against e loneliness at home solo..haiz-.-

started drinkin e last pathetic bottle of black label at home at 4 since ive gt nth btr to do at home..kinda wanted to test my limits cuz ive always been a social drinker outside..purposely drank on an empty stomach so tat i can kinda get e tipsy feel which ive nv experienced b4..can onli do tis at home thou since i dun wana drink much outside afterall its unbecomin of gals to do so n shld always keep a sober mind..but bout 10+ then i realised tat aft so many glasses..i even more awake than earlier..all my daddy's fault tat i inherit his love for drinkin n e high alcohol tolerance too~

anw nites ppl..off to con't since i wun get to drink anymore when sch reopens-.- thou i doubt ill ever get e feel tonite=P

**edited at 3.50am..

stil super awake-.- n hungry too cuz ive totally skipped dinner>.<

proggers dinner~

2009-12-28T23:46:00.012+08:00

went to chomp chomp for dinner wif proggers today..too bad karen n claire couldnt come..but still enjoyed e nite wif ian jem ben jzeying n sam..laughed n joked all e way=P epic sentence frm ben: "why drink when u can drink soft drinks?" srsly u too innocent alr..time to havoc!! hahaha:D
bondin wif proggers rocks..shld come out more often..btw ian korkor plannin next outin to rocher rd eat bean curd~ yummy yummy!! ill try tink of smth up durin our next hols so tat we can go malaysia eat bbq too~ :DD
alrite i noe its short compared to e 1001 things we were laughin bout juz now..but its best kept in our memories (: anw proggers u rock!! love u guys <3 nites ="">

p.s. juz changed my song list..few oldies in there =P but its niceee~ hope to change my blogskin b4 e arrival of 2010!!

hmm~

2009-12-27T03:25:00.005+08:00

nth btr to do now so i thot ill juz giv a rundown for tmr ba..okay not realli nth to do..i shld be slpin alr seein tat its 3.25am n i gotta wake up at 6 to serve tmr..but oh well =P anw ill be in 4 diff places for 4 services tmr..rock on man!! servin in agape kidz(4-5 years old) for e 1st service for e last time..servin in jubilee kidz(2-3 years old) for e 2nd service for e first n last time too (rock kidz will be revamped into beloved n treasured next year alr..for details check out my prev entries =P) then goin rock for 3rd service..goin c.yvonne hse for xmas cele durin 4th service timin..LOL wat an eventful sunday huh^^

anw im tinkin of changin my blogskin alr..any suggestions?? let me noe ya?? but pls..smth christianity okay!!? lik my present blogskin:DD tinkin of doin it b4 new year..off for a brand new start..a brand new journey wif Him..a refreshed mind to fall in love wif Him once agn.. (: all thru unmerited favour in my life :DD

Blessed X'mas <33

2009-12-25T01:36:00.006+08:00

kinda lazy to update..so ill juz skim thru e details =P was comtemplatin btw goin to jordan n julian hse for x'mas dinner or spendin it wif dg since they are comin over..stayed home in e end anw..im sry (:

but still..tks Jesus for e awesome time fellowshippin wif my dear dg on x'mas eve..wii-ing wif tako darren justin hair AW mindy yanping n yinlin..ordered pizzahut delivery (agn..) n tks mindy n siying for blessin us wif a wonderful cheesecake homemade by themselves (:

lets celebrate e day when a baby born in bethleham was a gift frm God n became e Son of man..who took away my sins n shame at the cross..Love is now within me Grace came down n dwelled among us..gav His life to redeem us bought eternal peace n joy to the world(: we are the reason tat He gav His life..to a world tat was lost He gav all he could giv to show us e reason to live..He is the reason for ME :D Happy Birthday Jesus!! Felix Navidad!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS^^

class chalet~

2009-12-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

*yawn* tired sia..lazy to blog now but i rather get over n done wif it now..another reason for not wantin to blog tis is tat im kinda dissapointed in e class..if u ppl dun wana come in e future then say so n ill cancel e whole thing..can save me e trouble of plannin it n shiftin my schedule..im as busy or much more than u ppl..but oh well wats done is done..ill juz agaration bout e chalet ba..anw its 3d2n if i blog bout everything tat happened i doubt u guys wana read too :S

day one of chalet:

supposed to meet ningning n timtim at 1pm for lunch then check in..but was late cuz went to airport to send becca off..bon voyage ya(: anw reached there bout 3 then we checked in n kena block K..block K!! so freakin far away frm the entrance sia..but oh well anw timtim slept lik near immediately then me n ningning went to walk ard at ehub..btw old chang kee rocks :D

1st nite of chalet:

went to eat at bk then went back to e room..oh AND timtim is totally a retard sia..he take my ds out yet duno how to turn it on..duno wats a stylus n cant identify which is a touch screen n which is not..rofl!! anw went to watch e 12.15am show of 'bodyguards and assasins' at ehub..ended bout 2.30am lorrr didnt expect it to be so long..timtim once agn fell aslp first while huggin ning..n who was e one who keep sayin in class wan ton de-.- anw ning say she no feel slp cuz its way past her bedtime..but its juz e opp of me cuz its nowhere near my bedtime (for those who duno i norm slp at 4+ =P) felt kinda weird wif both of them huggin n sleepin beside me..wanted to slip to e bottom bunk to sleep de..but oh well lazy to move so sua liao..anw played my ds n slept wayyy aft both of them did=P

2nd day of chalet aka bbq:

collected e stuffs bout 5.15 then when back n started lightin e pit..kudos to timtim's first attempt for tryin..jacob n rahman came bout 6+ then jon arrive bout half hr aft them..then they went out to buy their beer for playin cards..me n ning had to bbq n serve them in e room while they playin daidi lorrrr..tats til they finally decided to be alil more auto n come out to play..wanted to catch e midnight show for 'avatar' but not much seats left so we gave up n went to e arcade..could hav done btr than stage12 >.<

2nd nite of chalet:

jon n timtim went to cheers bout 12 to buy alcohol b4 goin back to e room to play daidi..firstly i onli take liquor n second no beer for me at all..i expected them to be worthy drinkers..srsly buy so lil i wan drink also scared ltr they say not enough to go ard..in e end juz 4cans n 1 bottle onli n they started talkin 'rubbish' then timtim ko alr..comeon u guys were e ones who said wana ton de okay!!? sian diao lorrr in e end jon went out bout 4.30 to buy more liquor ("no one dare mess wif a drunk jonathan" yea yea we noe-.-) but no more alr so he bought mac back..cant even walk straight n sit dw to eat his burger stil say wan con't drink..oh well shld hav bought more in e first place..i onli drank half a bottle>.<

p.s. congrats to ningning n timtim (: afterall tis chalet was so much more happenin than expected (for u 2)..ain't it^^

carol-ing~

2009-12-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

kay tis wil be a rly short post..went x'mas carolling today wif cg..thou not all of us was there..theres onli lik bridget joan huiling tsuting erin alena derek jon ben christon n bram..but back to e topic..we first went to joan's hse ard 4 n sang to her mum..then we hang ard in there playin piano n guitar n fellowship a lil..then we moved to christon's hse for a 'xmas dinner' blessed by his parents (:

we viewed a vid of neville tan..i tink..its more of his life story in prison n how God actually entered his life n givin him e reveletion at e right place right time..it kinda spoke alot to me n its a blessin to be able to watch it wif my cg..i guess i might do a 'review' on it when im free..but due to 'tiredness constrain'..not tonite:P

we also had a gift exchange for all of us..pray tat bridget likes e daily devo thou its not very applicable since its for students but still:S n i rly lik e cute socks i gt frm tsuting^^ oh oh n in addition our dearest cgl bought each of us a x'mas present..for e guys its a water bottle..n for e gals its a scarf (: theres actually mustard color..purple color n green color..then when we were openin i saw xiangfang jie's mustard color n joan's purple i was half-tinkin half-prayin it would be gd if i get e green one..then when i open it haha juz rite ive gt wat i wanted..then erin n tsuting suggested tat we sync n wear white tees wif e scarfs tmr..then i rmb agape's dress code tmr is either red or green..n ive wore e last red ive got today tks to da-ge for arrangin me to wear red..so praise e Lord cuz i can use e scarf tmr for ak n cg :DD

anw i rly had fun today carolling n fellowshippin wif my beloved cg..wish for more of tis to come.. so da-ge!! chope chope go arrange okay!!?

dg outin~

2009-12-18T23:41:00.011+08:00

yo ppl!! hows life for u guys?? theres juz one shiok thing for me bout havin hols..my sleepin time(: i slept at 5 n woke up at 1 for e past few days..thou my schedule is goin crazy since ive gt smth on everyday..got sch on mon..went out wif e babes on tues..agape A x'mas cele on wed..cg meetin up on thurs..n dg comin my hse on fri which is today..oh n sry to those tat ive ps-ed cuz time is realli tight..but still IM LOVIN' IT!!
anw woke up at 1+ today then laz in bed usin lappy til i went out to amk hub ard 4 to meet my dear dg..in e end *ahem* sara *ahem* chio *ahem* stranger *ahem* put us on aeroplane..but oh well nvm we will still enjoy ourselves ttm..too bad for u all:P anw DARREN READ TIS: bought more wii controllers..now ive 4 le makes things easier for us next time:DD

anw reach home n started playin ssbb for bout 1hr..then we started band hero-ing..tako n me kinda sabo-ed jiustin to sing since we both wanted e guitar n e drums..he still try fake say he duno how to sing any songs at all..but aft few songs n when we wanted to change he hearly hogged e mic..oh and potatoe had a unique way of holdin e guitar..he tinks tats a guzheng:P
anw we played for bout 3hrs til 9 then we called for pizzahut delivery(: while waitin for e pizza to arrive we played e game i haven touch at all ever since i bought it: bleach..then i realise tat game is srsly not for me..my arm's cmi eve b4 e first match is over..so e match was btw potatoe n tako..but srsly e strength is imba de..tako's byakuya won potato's *i forgot:P* wif full health remainin..sian diao maybe i shld get tako to complete e story mode for me n unlock all e charactors^^
then we continued on wii sports..tis is where i ruled!! they 2 on 1 me in teenis n i still won..thou e ali baba's dancin was entertainin enough:D then i had a match of boxin wif justin while tako go collect e food..i nearly won him okay!!? juz left 1 bar onli-.- then we ate our stuffs while watchin 'power sunday'..me n justin gt nearly every ans correct when tako dun understand half e time..thou wat i can say is tat e ansewrs are rly not 'cheng yu'..then they left bout 10.45 ba (:

n lastly sry to derek 大哥..ian korkor..noelle n ning for not replyin u all cuz im too engross in e games n left my hp on silent mode:P alrite then tats all folks..wil update next time..hope i can find time tmr or sunday ba..or else e blog will be so dead for a week..

oh juz a short sharin on my schedule frm tmr onwards..gt xmas caroling wif cg whole day tmr..then sunday is e standard procedure thou it wil be a lil special cuz ill be servin 1st in suntec convention then goin to indoor stadium for 2nd service..pray tat there wil be seats (cg help me book!!) theres class chalet frm mon-wed..then dg comin my place to celebrate xmas at my hse on thurs..n x'mas day wif family!! then there might be proggers xmas cele on saturday..n lastly events family xmas party at c.yvonne hse aft sunday service :DD hectic but..IM LOVIN' IT! (mac dun come aft me:P)

stupid com~

2009-12-13T20:35:00.006+08:00

hiya peeps!! ehh firstly to all tat msn me ytd n yet not receive my reply..reason simply being MY WORTHLESS PIECE OF CRAP HAS JUST CRASHED!!! okay maybe not crashed since i can still hear e 'deng deng deng' of my msn and etc..but e meanin is there since i cant see a single thing..its fine one moment n gav me a black screen e next moment..i knew it was goin kaput soon few days back..but i was hopin for it to be able to last til aft monday since it was my last day of sh..yes its monday due to me bein in a ridiculous sch..then it can go to the 'hp hospital' n camp in there for all i care..afterall com isnt all my life..theres stil so much more constructive stuffs for my attention..so here am i usin my daddy's com to update my blog..thou he dun realli lik me doin tis cuz 'it will corrupt my com!'..yea lik so why isnt it doin tat to everyone else' coms -.-

anw same routine every sunday n went to serve in agape kidz..man aft a week in e 'secular world'..lookin at those 4-5 years old kids at the beginning of the week is realli refreshin..seein them in the mornin smilin n sayin 'gd mornin teacher adeline' is juz so sweet..it just brings me back to e world tat 'God created for us'..a peaceful serene world where all of us are juz as innocent..not e messed up society where all e nonsense abounds..seein e innocent in e children eyes juz reminds me tat is wat our Abba wans for us..n tat juz geared me up for e week ahead..

too bad agape kidz wun be ard frm next year onwards..which might seems to be a long time..but its in fact juz 2 weeks ltr..we wil be splitin into 'beloved' n 'treasured'..n while e ministry is makin changes..i hav choices to make too..shld i remain in my precious 'R' team wif them where they wil forever hold a special place in my heart..or shld i move on to 'beloved' which is my first wish when i entered agape more than a year ago..all i can do now is to pray n seek peace in my heart for e new direction in life..n trustin in it tat e change by Daddy God would work for e goodness of me :)

anw when i reached home ard 3 aft more than an hr's bus ride..stupid 162m cause my butt to be numb aft so long..but tks God for a certain entertainment i had during e whole journey..anw i was lyin on e sofa chattin wif mummy at ard 4 n e next thing i knew was tat e sky is dark when i woke up..i napped for 3+ near 4 hrs..woah thk Jesus for tis awesome rest tat i haven had since so long ago..spendin time in ur kingdom is e best tat i can ever received..i felt e most energized in such a long while when i woke up:)

and for those who duno..PASTOR PRINCE'S 'UNMERITED FAVOR' IS READY FOR COLLECTION TODAY!!! hahaha n its onli for people for pre-ordered or you would hav to wait til 2nd feb next year alr..n guess wat!? i missed e pre-order date..so sad for me rite..but its alrite cuz even b4 i had e chance to even read e book..unmerited favor came upon me alr..i rmb i was talkin to t.lynn about e book n tat i didnt get e chance to pre-order n i had to waot til next year before i could read it..at tat time i was kinda complainin yet prayin to e Lord tat how i wish i could hav 1 right here right now!! then Praise Jesus a tchr walk by while we were chattin n she said she had an extra n i could hav it!! oh man it was such a pleasant surprise..althou i had some doubts in my heart..but lik wat p.Prince said juz ask n u wil get it..so ive got a new book now to read alr :DD yay!!

anw since my com crashed..be expected tat tis blog might be growin cobwebs for a period of time..i doubt ill ask my daddy for his com agn..its kinda _____. fill in ur own words:P buh-bye for now~ *muacks*

ewww~

2009-12-12T18:29:00.003+08:00

juz a short post on an update of my lunch today..went to a thai restaurant cuz daddy wanted to eat there..ordered loads of food but e main thing was e pineapple rice..one of e ingredients inside is actually raisins..n thk God i dun eat raisins..so i had to take them out one by one..but when i was finishin my second bowl..i fliped a 'raisin' then i realise something..shit raisin had legs!!! turns out tats a nymph tat was fried tgt..man i nearly vomitted all e food tat ive swallowed..its daddy who dun mind tat n could forgiv e ppl there..if it was me n my mummy..they wouldnt get away wif it so soon..but oh well its over alr so juz keep me in prayers tat i dun get any stomachache alrite!!? *peace* :D

disgusted by my actions >.<

2009-12-09T00:01:00.005+08:00

ever since e beginnin ive entered rp..i always detested ppl who hav to use 'resources' to get work done..i dun uderstand why do they hav to take references when they hav e time n capabilities to do a gd one tat belongs to themselves alone..whenever im e one compilin work ive always hated ppl who send me their frens slides n tell me its done by them..

lik come on lah u dun even bother readin thru e slides much less change stuffs tat wil giv u away..if u wan it tis way n insist its done by u then fine..ill juz copy n paste into ours..but wat kind of shit are u givin me..readin off e slides durin presentation as thou its e first time ure seein it-.- srsly dun mention copyin few slides..even if its juz 1 simple sentence tats copied into it..e ppt slides done up wouldnt fully belong to us alr much less e grades we get..if its a C u wil tink tat is not wat ive deserved for my standard..yet if its an A then srsly do u tink tat grade even belongs to u??

despite my many protests to my team members regardin tis issue..i noe they stil do read their frens stuffs' to get an idea wat to do..but i juz giv them e benefit of e doubt n trust tat at e very least they didnt copy from it used their own ideas..but ive alr done wat i could n said wat i needed..wat else can i do anymore since they are determined tat its e best way for them..but im stil very grateful for them to try to avoid lettin me see it..althou theres no point hidin cuz its freakin obvious okay!!?

anw ive finally succumbed under 'pressure' by my team on monday when all they had was 'resources'..i knew for myself tat even if they didnt wanted to do i could hav done up a completely new slides by myself for all of us..but since they alr had e slides n ready to sent me..then so be it ill juz choose to not say anything then..anw we were given a limit of 10 slides so aft minusin e cover, contents and thank you slides..we were left wif 7 n theres a gal who actually sent me 4 of her (friend's) slides n asked me to copy n paste into it..wow now i wonder wats gonna happen to e other 3 ppl in my team..anw i kinda did some arrangements n stuffs then off we go to present..

i gav all e 7 slides for them to present..leavin e cover n contests for myself onli..not tat i wana make myself look 'pitiful' as some might tink..but i realli wan no part in e 'copied n pasted' ppt..i noe not all are lik tis..bearbear did up e 2 slides on his own n shared it wif joy..for tat im realli grateful at least i noe theres still someone workin alongside wif me..

its juz e integrity part of myself tat i couldnt bypass..i guess theres juz too much pride in me..i know there isnt onli black n white in e world..but e least we can do is to minimise e grey areas instead of manifestin them..i felt realli disgusted in e inside of me when i was compilin e stuffs they sent me..i cant believe aft all ive said to ppl n all ive done to prevent such matters in happenin in my team..im doin e exact actions tat ive detested so much..

at tat moment i realli felt lik i could juz break dw in tears n let go..but i chose to keep in all within me til i reached home cuz i realli dun wan my emotions to further affect them..i can alr tell tat many ppl are shocked by my sdn quiet-ness..but oh well e impact is done..ive cried n got over n done wif it..e onli thing i can do now is just do my best to prevent frm such things to happen agn..

gals outin :D

2009-12-06T23:51:00.005+08:00

went for 3rd wif app n dione aft servin in agape kidz today..aft tat 'someone' says she wana go far east for chicken rice yet duno how many stops to there nor e actual shop place in e buildin..anw "far east shoppin mall got place to shop meh??" mind u tis qns is asked by a certain someone in e bus :P n i cant believe dione n i actually sent near 20 sms-es even thou we were on e same bus infront n behind each other..hahaha:P n louisa's shock by e 'beep' sound was totally epic!! :DD

anw aft eatin we went to shop ard at wheelocks place n ion orchard for near 3-4 hrs nonstop..bought quite lot of stuffs i guess..jokin n laughin all e way til e extent some ppl gav us weird stares..i doubt tat 2 dumb dumb ever realised since they are totally lost in their own world alr..but e most ridiculous one was :'ZHA DAN!!'..ROFL~
anw aft walkin ard we went to starbucks ard 10..ordered some green tea thingy n a cheese cake..then we kinda started takin pics all ard e place..aft gettin e rest alr we continued outside nonstop for bout an hr ba..btw most pics are up on fb alr thou i took out most of e unglam ones..n louisa blushes when someone kisses her!!

hahaha anw when we wanted to carry on takin pics..but app's 'ru lai shen zhang' kinda lik ended e nite for us..by sendin my cam flyin in e midair n comin dw wif a crash..oh well its alrite since dione took it home to try her 'grace'..but hey app! regardless wat happens dun blame urself..its juz a camera n its not worth our frenship okay!!? dun be too bothered bout it (:

anw im tired alr..n theres still sch tmr..so NITES!!

'dg' meetin??

2009-12-04T23:32:00.010+08:00

ended class early today cuz e faci had to rush a flight..so we left sch bout 2.30..on my way home i went to north point to help mummy tapao nasi briyani..man smells super nice de then i bought 1 pack for myself too:P
anw darren called to asked if he could come to my hse for WII..then i shun bian call tako ask him call others if free or not to come..muz be a busy day tat onli darren n tako n hair comin..met darren at north point then we cab home..on e way he showed me e game 'lego rock band'..i nearly fainted cuz its so confusing..hmm shall get in touch wif all my 'in-drawers' hand-held consoles soon..tako n hair shld be comin themselves ltr so i told them to juz giv me a call if they lose their way:)
anw by right darren had to leave bout 5.30 to be home for dinner..but when i called tako at 5 then i realise tat he is dwstrs waitin for hair so i told him to come up first..lost to darren lik forever in ssbb): then we continued 'band heros' takin turns on e guiatr drums n e mic..darren's singin rocks man!! anw e timin kinda dragged on n on for darren n we played all e way til bout 7.30 b4 we left to walk wif darren to e mrt..tako n me could shun bian get our dinner..haiz poor hair didnt manage to come:( its alrite theres always e next time:D
e most irritatin part was tat due to my laziness to bring a bag..which seems normal since its juz 5mins walk..i left e 50 bucks in my pocket..n i guess its obvious why i brought up tis point..cuz congratulations to me ive dropped $50!! haiz too bad for me i guess ): its alrite since its gone nothing i do can get it back..juz pray tat e person who picked up e money would be blessed (:
anw wish theres more dg outings to come..esp when its nearin hols alr..we shld get to bond more often:DD anw ive got nothing btr to do now but await for arrow tmr..haven seen e cg for so long alr..kinda miss them n service too..missin juz 1 arrow service alone makes me feel so left out alr..cant imagine life if i ever back-slided..lookin at some of my friends back-slidin i juz dun understand how can they ever tolerate tat..oh well all i can do now is to keep them in prayers tat they will soon return into his coverin n kingdom (: Amen!!

blog??

2009-12-03T23:19:00.003+08:00

been tinkin if i shld change my blogskin and blog link recently..then juz rite today's mod is about creatin blogs and etc bout bloggin..hmm makin me tink more about whether should i make e changes..
e thing is tat i dun hav e time to create a new blogskin..or even look for a preset blogskin which i might lik..n ill nd to tell ppl to relink my new blog link too~ seems troublesome for them n me -.-
still decidin if i shld get started on it cuz its definitely gonna be super time consumin..n im sure i wun be able to stop frm e moment i start:P
hmm shall ask e Lord to speak to me n see how it goes..who noes i will be blessed wif more time next wk n hav e motivation to finish it up in e fastest time possible:D oh well..grace grace (:

lol~

2009-12-02T23:48:00.006+08:00

haiz feelin super sick for e past week alr..whenever i kena asthma attack then got e feel tat e whole works is comin soon..n my feelin nv lies..truen enough it stucked..n i dun seem to be recoverin anytime soon..its lik whenever im feelin btr n on e road to recovery..sdnly ill juz feel even worse inside agn..

anw my team today onli got me ningning n uncle jk..by rite theres also chinyang n caoye..but both of them mia..oh well left wif 3 of us and we managed to handle it by e end of e day..see tis proves tat she aint impt all rite!? juz an extra nonsensical crapper in our class..anw i still rmb last wk was e first time i team wif her..n i actually managed to not flare up despite certain matters happenin..proves tat God is great to stop me:) or else e class would go into a worse state of awkwardness..haha anw despite me not flarin up n i didnt even talk to her in e first place-.- but i tink she felt e negative vibes comin out of me or smth..or so as some of them says..watever e case e thing worth celebratin is tat she isnt in class today!! hahaha:DD

when i did up e slides for today i did my usual namin of a certain someone..n when our ppt is up e faci still wasnt ready so ning looked at me expectin me to say smth..so i started readin of my cover page..talkin bout me finally not usin e green theme tat ive been usin for e past 3wks i guess..n explain e names i put..uncle JK..adel..n Mrs Low~ haha:D im kinda surprise some ppl in class actually onli realise it lik now when i started puttin tat since 1wk+ ago..then few of them started e teasin once agn..hahaha:DD (n Mr Low say wan go toilet n let her paiseh alone de..in e end he still stayed:P)

during 6p 'ppl' sdnly started msn-ing me askin if wat i put was real..is my face written 'wan information come to me!!!'..hmm thou i noe my face got 'secrets are safe wif me' printed on it..or else i wun be holdin on to so much secrets le..so many couples come to me..not tat i mind thou..listenin frm e guy's point of view AND e gal's point of view makes me e middleman forever..anw i didnt realli gav them an ans cuz idk whether e leads wans it to be known..truth be told they also not official YET..

anw when we were goin home then i realise tat im a lightbulb sia..bearbear jj ivan all partial leavin me alone wif timtim n ningning nia..i kinda lik stayed in class not wantin to leave wif them..then ning sdnly came back to find me n we started chattin wif jan + wif many ears opening bigbig..haha now then i noe jan also another kaypoh person she keep askin qns n look so excited when she hear e ans frm ning..in e end timtim left wif cw n tell her meet at int..so off we go~

hmm b4 i end tis post..btr type bout smth tat happened ytd but no time update..i was sittin dw on e mrt on e way home n there was an auntie sittin beside me..b4 e train can even reach e next stn..do u noe wat she did!!? she treated my shoulder as a pillow and totally lean on me..not tat i mind anw..juz tried to make as lil movements for her to sleep well..e worse thing was tat she kinda had b.o. and dandruff was on my shoulder alr..haiz didnt wanted to make her feel bad so i let her sleep all e way till i reached my stn when i wake her up n told her i needed to get dw:S hmm auntie next time slp at home okay..slp in mrt very easy miss ur stop de:)

haha nothing else alr..i doubt i will be sleepin early tonite..anw byeeeee~~~

sadded day~

2009-11-30T23:28:00.002+08:00

haiz super regret why didnt i follow my feelings frm ytd n not come sch today-.- expected something lik tis to happen today..anw its lik a total waste of a day lorrr..i could hav done up so many other stuffs..bet e faci is super irritated by me nw..didnt hav e feel to work at all..when bearbear left theres only e 3 gals left..n we were are in lala land~ anw e day passed by horribly..but oh well its over n nothing i say now can change e fact tat today is a total disastor..

then i reached my hse dwstrs..my neighbours frm 1 flr dw juz bought their grandchildren home..e lil 5yr old kido ran towards me juz to say hi n gav me a hug as he always did..but since i had extras today..i gav him a box of chocolates as a 'reward':) then i was about to close my hse door he actually ran up juz to pass me a pack of oreo:P frm wat he says 'gd things are meant to be shared..i giv him so he giv me too..next time muz prepare more!' :DD kids nowadays are so smart..hahaha:D

anw i was on e Wii for near 2hrs juz now..quite shiok since my mummy is hooked on her new hk drama tats juz out..thou i wana watch it too..gotta wait for her to finish b4 passin me e discs..so ill hav more time on e wii for tis few days:D yay!!

i guess tats all for now..im super tireddd alr~ haven had enough slp ever since sem started..i nd slp!!! n im hungry now cuz i ate dinner at 5.30 today n nows alr lik 1am..haiz cant do anything..can onli go to bed now n find food tmr morn...oh n btw i dun feel lik goin sch tmr AGN >.<>

wee~

2009-11-28T23:51:00.004+08:00

woohoo~ i got a new Wii~ hahaha i didnt expect gettin it today in e first place anw..but all glory definitely goes to e Lord!! hahaha:DD

on thurs when i went out wif my precious dg(mind u we didnt meet up for lik almost forever alr:P) we actually spent near 1hr in a game shop discussin bout such stuffs..i saw a ds guitar hero casing *ahem* "hair"..e game controller for windows microsoft *ahem* "tako ball"..band hero for ds *ahem* "darren"..n many many more stuffs..while darren kept intro-ing us his nintendo stuffs..more towards Wii thou..

at tat point of time i didnt realli care bout it..but in e nite when i was doin my night time chat wif Daddy God..i sdnly felt lik mentionin e 'want' for a Wii..its not even a 'need'..but e random feel juz kicked in n theres no point in not followin my feelings isnt it..so i kinda mentioned in passin tat havin a Wii at home feels quite gd..then i felt my heart at peace n i went to slp..

i was supposedly to be goin wif ningning jj n bearbear to SITEX on saturday de..but all of a sdn all 3 of them had smth on..so no choice had to cancel it.. (btw my msn pm now writes: "people pls take note: there will be 3 sensational serial murder cases in W47B on mon (:") but anw i was supoosedly to go wif bj glenn eugene etc de..but sdnly my daddy says he wana go too since he needed some stuffs..so alrite then all e btr for me..i wun nd to pay up myself..hahaha:DD

anw when we decided on our stuffs alr..my daddy a new external com screen n my new hdd..we walked by a game exhibition store..then he randomly asked me how much is e Wii now n proceeded to ask me if i wanted one..i was lik wow ive rejected his offer once in e past..doin it once is innocence but doin it e second time would be purely idiotic..anw i took up his offer n chose my games n thou choices were limited..had no choice to choose one of e game cuz i rly duno wat else to take le..thou i felt kinda bad cuz of e super ex price it amts to..but frm wat darren says..its still pretty cheap!!

anw i hav a new Wii at home now wif 5 games to play wif..oh well i know its kinda lil but wat u expect frm me..ive got wii sports..band hero..super mario bros.wii..super smash bros brawl..bleach: shattered blade..haiz darren hurry intro more nice games alrite?? thou it btr not be trauma centre or zelda..can come my hse play soon..yew tee is super far for me n tako!!! :DD

btw..i wonder if im e onli one wif such fun parents..my mummy had alr 'started a war' wif me tat im not allowed to brin my ds to sch cuz she wanted to play mario..n she stil dare to say she was e one who helped me move on so fast when im e one who helped her all e while..but its alrite..however e moment i bought e Wii home..i was so freakin scared tat she would nagg lik crazy to me..but at e very least i tink im kinda smart!! cuz i knew before i can show her e Wii i would hav to flash e mario game in front of her eyes..but too bad~ ever since it had been set up..shes e one playin it more crazily then me..n her totally playin hours is actually more than me..

oh well not onli her..both my daddy n mummy are actually enjoyin themselves shoutin loudly bout e game..toally temptin me yet not givin me e controller -.- haiz too bad theres onli 2 pairs..hmm i guess ill go get 1 more pair of Wiimote then ill be ready to crash into their game n own them!!! :DDD

all in all..tks Daddy God for takin notice of a casual remark of mine n i trust tat U will fulfil my un-needed desires super-exceeding my expectations..for it is not i wan in every seasons..but wat u wan for me in tis specific season of my life AMEN (:

'social education' -.-

2009-11-25T21:44:00.006+08:00

went to cwp's seoul garden for 4hrs ytd wif ningning timtim n bearbear..jj was supposed to be there too..but he had some urgent stuffs sdnly n had to leave:( anw we had a wild time there wif all e explicit details flyin ard..all tks to tat childish timtim(he admitted tat himself..no slander included:P)..experienced bearbear..n tat act gong but im sure she noes everything de ningning..oh well i shall not continue on tat matter..but i srsly nearly had nitemares when i slept last nite subconsiously..thou i didnt realli tink bout it til they mention tis morn..

anw althou i cook at home..i always nd ppl to cook for me in seoul garden cuz i cant stand e oil jumpin..i dun mind standin infront of e saucepan at home fryin food or cookin watever..but hotplate..forget it..so i had a stand-in mummy n daddy for today..presentin to u ningning mummy n timtim daddy :DD

hahaha ningning mummy totally cooked for me e whole of 4hrs..okay maybe not..we spent loads of time talkin nonsense so e cookin time shld be bout 2hrs..but its bad enough for ningning mummy's hands to ache alr..but anw nearin e end both 'daddy' n 'mummy' stand up tgt n cook sia..but e thing tat made me stun was when timtim ask me which is my plate n put some chicken on it-.- LOL sia..n he didnt gav bearbear at all..rofl~

but now..e worryin thing comes when we left..e smell!! e moment i stepped into e fresh air zone outiside seoul garden..e smell immediately hit me..i was lik totally..die die die..how to go home?? e first step i took into e mrt..e aunties beside me stared lik there was no tmr..even a kid comeup to me n said 'eh tis jiejie smells lik food' -.- i nearly fainted on e spot..anw e moment i reached home..i didnt even hav e time to drop my bag when my mummy started her naggin n fussin bout me..but 1 thing tat i love bout my family is tat we hav jokin way of livin..aft all e fussin n naggin of e smell tats gonna linger..e last sentence she spoke was 'why nv tapao??'

anw i juz realise tat recently my class had been quite active since last wk..in e sense tat e quiet ones are gettin more hyper..althou some cold + lame jokes can be improved further..but at least it shows tat our efforts had not gone dw e drains:) btw we as in e more active ones:P im realli happy tat they are startin to open up n warmin up to us:) althou more than half e sem went by alr..but i believe its nv too late..looks lik our class outin has hope of not being so awkward alr :D yay!!! :DD

Psalms 118:8~

2009-11-23T23:52:00.004+08:00

an interesting thing tat i came across quite awhile ago..thot it would be awesome to share since it realli impacted my life and changed my tinkin for certain matters:)

Wat is e shortest chapter in e Bible?

Psalms 117

Wat is e longest chapter in e Bible?

Psalms 119

Which chapter is in e centre of e Bbile?

Psalms 118

There are 594 chapters before Psalms 118.

There are 594 chapters after Psalms 118.

Add them tgt and u wil get 1188.

Wat is e centre verse of e Bible?

Psalms 118:8

in e future if u ever get into any rough patches of ur life..juz dive into e centre of His promise to u..when things get tough in life..trust tat faith dun get u ard trouble..it gets u through it!

"It is better to trust in the LORD than put confidence in man!"

Fina/ Arena Swimming World Cup '09~

2009-11-22T23:58:00.008+08:00

at Singapore Sports School for e past 2 days helpin out for the Fina/ Arena swimming world cup '09 ..was super boring for me there..had totally nothing to do majority of e time..oh well..one word is suffcient sia..BORING!!

anw i cant believe it actually took me $20 to get to SSS aft turnin a huge round via *ahem*..shall skip certain details n not further embarass myself here..but oh well but e time i arrive there e event had alr started..lik totally die die die..then when i went in e ava room to collect my 'arena' shirts for e next 2 days..then i realise tat golden monkey didnt order e right size for me..since we're on e topic then conveniently..excuse me i wear M okay!!? not L!! anw i went to change into e event shirt..it was so freakin huge..but no choice so juz gotta make do wif it..

e sequence for e 2 days are exactly e same..morn are e heats..then theres lik 4hrs interval frm 11pm to 3pm.i totally slacked ard e whole time while sttin by e stairs..played ds + sms + sleep..then aftnn was e actual competition..n i realise tat e camera kinda love me..regardless of where i am it would be able to find me..or perhaps i didnt hav a choice since e area i was positioned at was e entrance for e swimmers..

anw it had been two freakin boring n tirin days..cmi alr..tks to all ppl who helped in keepin me entertained n occupied..u ppl noe who u are..super tired gotta slp le...Zzzz..

random~

2009-11-20T17:12:00.003+08:00

haiz i wonder wat is happenin to me recently..i cried 3 times ytd for no reason..n its not e first time tat tis happened alr..juz sdnly felt lik no modd for anything n randomly breakdown-.- hmm will nd to control my emotions..even thou its quite hard..but nothing is impossible for Him..im sure ill be fine soon:)

cried on n off til bout 1am..then i finally crawled into my bed..not becuz i was sleepy..but becuz cried til i was tired-.- n i couldnt take it anymore..so i guess sleepin would make me stop..n i was rite..thou i woke up realli late today..n was late for class..agn-.- oh well its not smth new anw..

oh btw..ppl who duno why i dun lik eatin fish..fyi its simple..cuz im a kid in spittin out small stuffs in my mouth..tats why i hate eatin cooked fish althou i dun mind sashimi:) cuz i duno how to spit e bones out..n for those who are wonderin why am i so random..

my mummy bought a bunch of grapes home ytd n she gave me some juz now..e moment i took a bite into it..big mistake!! i bit into a seed immediately..i srsly hate eatin grapes wif seeds..why didnt she buy seedless lik as usual..turns out tat ntuc are onli left wif seeded grapes..i so wanted to throw tat bowl of grapes away at tat moment..no choice but to finish it since its rite infront of me n it looked appetising..ended up usin 1hr to finish less then 20 grapes..cuz i need time to find e seeds n spit them out before eatin it-.- worst experience eatin grapes! grapes alone!! n tats rite i am a lil kid:S

np ):

2009-11-19T15:04:00.006+08:00

cant believe wat happened to me ytd..was suppose to meet proggers for dinner at flyer's popeye..when im at home gettin ready ah chor sdnly call n ask if wan go back gy see np annual camp how le..when i haven decide whether to go meet proggers for dinner or go back np see how they are doin or even btr both dun go juz stay at home slack..sdnly it rained outside..so i thot btr to not travel so far to flyer..n ive got nothing btr to do at home anw..so i decided to go check out my 1st n onli batch of cadets:)

so there i am..went back to gyss ytd to hav a look at their np annual camp..waa they totally cui sia..i wonder how did they ever handle e unit for e past 7mths as an NCO??took their own sweet time walkin about..ankle sock unzipped pants untucked shirts..talkin in mother tongue lik nobody's business..not onli did i see tis attitudes in the campers..even majority of e NCOs did tat too..wats e point when u wan to come up wif a trainin camp yet u urself are not ready-.-

e time was not in their control..when i look at their proposal i nearly exploded..e camp coords asked me for e proposal format 3days b4 e camp..juz as i expected..all proposals are done by both of them althou they all not e conductin personnels..n watever they wrote are not exactly right too..oh well im alr in no position to scold them alr..if not there will be so much more issues comin up!

anw their 'campfire' was totally cmi de..e proposal actually wrote 'a bunch of torchlights stacked tgt to stimulate a fire effect'..yet they didnt even prepare torchlights..n when e campfire i/c asked e other NCOs if they could pass their torchlights to help..they actually said lazy to walk back to their bunks and sat down n slack..zzz..i cant believe my ears tat their reply was so highly irritatable..when i finally help them do up e 'fire'..then i realise smth..e emcees for e nite are in fact 2 NCOs..n 1 was unwilling to come up..needin another person to take over his place..e whole sequence of e campfire was horrible..even e song leaders are e NCOs..hello u guys are suppose to be loud in e first place okay!!? both e emcees n song leaders shld be from e campers..if i had read e proposal beforehand n if i had e authority..i would hav cancelled tis stupid arrangement rather e night confidence walk..afterall tat was one of e main pt n could realli hype them up..but oh well wats done cant be undone..

before we left for e nite..we kinda had a long talk wif part of e grp..i wouldnt call it scoldin since we are not in e position to do so..but we kinda pointed out their mistakes n stuffs..they looked realli tired n sianzz..but who was e cause of it..they treat it as thou we were lookin for trouble..lik yea we were lookin for trouble..of ourselves..we had tests n exams n schs e next day..yet where were we all at?? beside them givin them e advices they needed..thou i admit we sounded quite harsh..but at least i felt e need to do so..althou im pretty sure they didnt realli absorbed wat we said..
time flies by realli fast..i met tis batch of NCOs when i first became an NCO in sec3..they were e my first batch of cadets i took as a fresh NCO..n i realli did my best to pass on my knowledge to them..im super sure none of them in tat squad has nv curse me behind my back before since i was always playin e devil while e other guys are always e angels..but our aim in e end are all e same..which is hopin they did learn some things off us and will continue impartin their knowledge to their juniors in e future..n now is e time when they come to e age when i first met them..they are all now sec3s goin on sec4s..n im alr a poly student..yet when i saw them once agn..they were juz totally cui n cmi..at e end of e 'speech' we had for them n were about to leave..i turned ard n look at tat squad..they use to be my juniors..althout they wasnt e best..but they were my squad..n i was realli proud of them at tat time..why did they turn out lik tat?? at tat moment was i wanted to leave..i realli felt tat its not them who are e failures tat cant handle their juniors now..its me who e falure tat couldnt instill e right values in their hearts at tat time:(
lookin at them tis way gav me mixed feelings now..i rmb e days when i was over active in np tat i neglected my studies n relationships wif family n friends..n i told myself i nv wanted to be involved in it anymore..yet when i left sec sch i thot of goin back..but i couldnt cuz i gav up tat chance..n now lookin at them in tis way..im realli considerin shld i go back..juz feel lik e whole thing is a contradiction..i dun wana go back n see such a horrible situation..yet i wana go back n try do smth to improve e unit..even if help if very minimal..but at least im wif them..we can always suffer tgt..haiz..althou i doubt i will ever hav e chance anymore... ...

footprints~

2009-11-16T23:46:00.019+08:00

One night a man had a dream.

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He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

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Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

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For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:

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One belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,

He looked back at the footprints in the sand.
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He noticed that many times along the path of his life,
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There was only one set of footprints.
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He also noticed that it happened at the very

lowest and saddest times in his life.
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This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
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"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,
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You'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,
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There is only one set of footprints."
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I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
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The LORD replied:
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"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.
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During your times of trial and suffering,

When you see only one set of footprints,
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It was then that I carried you."

i guess most people would hav come across tis poem b4..regardless Christian or not..but i just wanted to share tis here..i came across tis poem few years ago when i still wasn't saved..yet it actually had quite a huge impact on me at tat time til now..tinkin back i bet it was e LORD who put tis 'seed' in my heart for it to 'sow' in time to come..n here i am..a Christian who glorifies His name now:D

ive been thru quite a fair bit frm e last time i blogged..n there are many tryin periods tat i hardly scraped thru..however ive always trusted in tis poem..tat e LORD had always been wif me n nv leave me..n He resides in my heart to make me whole agn..thru e trials and suffering tat ive gone thru in tis few mths..i had realli felt God's love for me standin ever strong..in my lowest n saddest time..u had always been wif me..thru e times when i felt lonely even thou im out wif a huge bunch of friends..thou e days when i felt sadness creepin into..thru e nites tat i teared silently..u gav me e strength cuz u CARRIED me thru them..tat i may walk in ur love for me right here right now:) it had been a supernatural journey n i dun wan tis to ever end..

"It is better to trust in the LORD than put confidence in man"

blog~

2009-06-30T23:20:00.008+08:00

hmm..guess im takin a break from bloggin for quite awhile frm now on..

not ready to update others wat is goin on in my life..

afraid to be hurt once agn..

i had enough for tis period of time alr..

i shared my innermost wif them..

yet wat i got in return was their indifference..

maybe they didnt mean it tat way but e harm was done..

maybe they thot i was how i look frm e outside..a strong gal..

but too bad my heart has once been hurt n can nv be e same anymore..

n aft them knowin wat had been goin on in my past they had to do it agn..

maybe they didnt even realise they did it..

maybe they didnt expect me to take it so harshly into my heart..

maybe they didnt consider e fact tat im overly sensitive to such matters..

but watever e case..

i nd a break frm them..

i nd a break frm tellin ppl my life..

i nd a break frm everything..

i noe tis post sounds incoherent..but i juz wanna finish it n seal my blog til a time when i tink is appropriate:S just await for e '3rd day' when my blog is revived ba:S til then... ...

love u<3

2009-06-22T23:24:00.012+08:00

oh well loads of ppl hav been tellin me to update..but ive got lik totally no feel to type anything at all..so lets get random..here goes...

I LOVE JESUS :D

I LOVE MUMMY :DD

haha i noe its random but its frm e bottom of my heart..hmm nothing else alr..i guess tats all for now..i realise my posts are gettin shorter n shorter..loads of things to do recently n tons of considerations to make:S but for now..tata~

emo-ing~

2009-06-13T23:38:00.006+08:00

haiz..been emo-ing recently..i juz realise tat ive been left out in loads of things..lik topics n secrets..outings n events..so many things had been goin on n i didnt even noe til 'someone' ask me if i was meetin them..lik is there even a meetin!?

haiz felt pretty down at first cuz i thot everyone was busy gettin on their own life..then i realise tat its juz tat im not included in e plans..hmm maybe it might not be anyone's fault at all..it might be juz me..juz me tinkin too much into things alr..but im still feelin frustrated why do i hav such thots..

all my memories of e past are flowin back to haunt me..why cant i live a life w/o such moments n miseries..feel lik im fightin a lone battle..wif my past..wif my present..n my unknown future..its not tat i dun wana explain but theres no way i can get things across..

Jesus!! pls take everything away tat i may live a whole new life!!

ecp~

2009-06-12T19:58:00.005+08:00

i cant believe i actually went to east coast park two days in a row wif 2 diff grp of ppl-.-

first was cg outin on mon..we went skatin n cycling..had a few jokes n laughed lik mad when quite a few of them cant skate..rofl~ tks victor for givin me a ride on his bike by pullin me along:) tat was uber fast:D went for dinner tgt then bus home wif quite a few of them..had a super embarrass moment in e journey-.- i btr not say:P

tues was class outin..met joyce mei hsien n syarah at 10.30 at amk to buy stuffs for e bbq..walked in e ntuc for near 2hrs..changed our mind of bus-ing there n took a cab dw..was e forst to arrive there..then me n syarah went to rent bikes..hang ard while quite awhile til trevor n wei lun came..then slowly they started 'flooded' in..oh well cant say tat it was a great class outin since not of us went..but still it was fun..left bout 8+ since i need to be home (life sux at times when u got a curfew-.-)..heard tat some of them stayed til midnite..cool!

oh well its over alr regardless whether its fun or not..all things work together for Good:)

guitar

2009-06-08T23:45:00.003+08:00

woohoo~ went nyp today for 'guitar lessons' from victor:) had fun wif victor jon n bram too thou i cant play it well yet:S but he is a great teacher:D too bad he goin NS le:( but still!! tks for today:DD hope we can meet up more often..afterall Godly friendships are meant to be:)

choice??

2009-06-03T23:48:00.011+08:00

haiz..been emo-ing recentlyfor no specific reason..but oh well..when did emo-ing need a reason..?? juz confused now by e recent spate of activities..
shld i wish for sch to start soon so tat i can avoid outings and the awkwardness tat comes wif it??
or shld i wish tat it wouldnt start so soon so tat i can hav time to resolve e probs i hav on hand??
ahhh..confused!!!

anw...
my daddy randomly asked me e other day if i wanted to buy anything??
I was lik WAT!?
hmm so now im considerin between a Wii or a LG Arena..

holidays!!!!!!!

2009-05-30T20:27:00.011+08:00

yay!!first day of holidays today!!thou im havin mixed feelin now>.<

btw i wana warn u all!!PEOPLE DUN PATRONISE THE BAN MIAN STORE IN AMK HUB!!!went for lunch at amkhub today..n i went to buy ban mian..e taste isnt superb to start wif alr..n most imptly..guess wat..when i made my order..i said lik near 10times..NO VEG!!n when my noodles came out..tada~e top is 1 colour..green-.-haiz..i literally threw e bowl onto my tray and paid e money wif a black face..im not tryin to be difficult or wat..but seriously..if i didnt say i didnt wan veg..i would admit its my fault n eat e veg..if i said it n e person didnt reply me..i can treat it as thou she didnt hear it n take it as my wrong..i dun mind eatin veggies..its not lik i cant even stand a strand of it..but e point is tat i repeated my order lik near 10 times..n all e times i said she wil reply me..so wat realli baffles me is how can she still get e wrong order!!!haiz..anw im boycottin tat shop..tat ban mian store suz!!!

anw todays my cousin's b'dae..so HAPPY BIRTHDAY EINAR!!thou he is lik right beside me..n he definitely dun read my blog..but still:D

haiz..borin life i hav..n i realise im havin more n more negative thots..haiz..gotta pray for e Lord to refresh my energy..so tat ill be more positive..lol..anw..gtg now..

contradiction-.-

2009-05-25T12:16:00.007+08:00

shagged yet stressed;

sleepy yet rushin assignments;

mind empty yet buzzin wif 'facts';

wana faint yet cant faint;

warm yet cold;

hungry yet not eatin;

livin in a life of contradiction;

or it is a life of 'argument-.-

whenever im pressed for time in sch

toilet is e best place to 'hide';

whenever im stressed

cryin is e best way to release it;

been goin to e toilet much more frequently recently;

wantin to cry so often til i forgot how many times!!

tks God for such 'wonderful' teams..

we juz changed teams tis week..for 4/5 modules-.-n i seem to hav 'wonderful' luck to get into such teams..need to 'almost-solo' for all of them..although i didnt finish everything on my own..my team members definitely did some stuffs..i wun say my team cant survive without me..im sure they can go by themselves..but i dare say i did e majority of the work for most of e modules..im nv a backstabber..even if my team members nv do anithing..if e faci ever ask..ill definitely giv e person credit even if e work is done by me..but i cant stop them on how they view me..i can be e worse person in class or watever..but as long as i do things which i deem right..i noe it doesnt matter how others view me..wat realli matters is how my daddy God view me..n i know tat in him im forever righteous:D Amen!!

troubled

2009-05-20T00:38:00.011+08:00

omg..for those who read my previous entries..ive got 4 diff igs..n i dun intend to giv any of it up since all meetin days are diff..but i guess ill need to giv some up alr..not tat i cant cope..but theres 1 email tat irritated me big time..hate ppl 'threatenin' me..so jcig..OUT!!(althou i did consider goin for e camp in e first place..) other than tat..cypher n SA overall bout e same..so i guess ill giv SA up if i cant pass e probation period:(atleast GenRe is something i definitely wun quit:D

received a bad news ytd..new science team for thur..sianz..someone in my class asked me b4..if i get to choose my 'dream' team members..who will i choose..after thinkin it over..i guess havin smith and paulene wil be great durin meetin..then david and rex can do e presentations..then i can juz sit by e side n 'shake leg'..lol..eh..i not tat bad okay..will help out de:)but anw after e new team is out..i juz stun there immediately..all 4 of them in diff team..n im in another team..wats e possibility of tat man..zzz..didnt even kena one in e same team:(haiz..now my new team e 4 ppl..one is e ppt gal..always get info from others n do ppt..one is do wat he is told..one is sleep his lessons thru..one is play play then breakout straight go out 'blow'..haiz..e 16 others can relax le..not tat they dun nd to do aniting..but atleast they can split e job..even if i split our job..only 2-3 of us wil do:(haiz..science sure flunk alr..but still..pray tat they will change for e better..then we can all get good grades tgt:S

anw..nothing much to say alr..lol..so lets crap abit..haha..but my blog finally back in use..yay!!:D so for those who are complainin..heres it..thou nothing new..not much time update recently anyway..wil try my best:)yawn..very sleepy alr..til next time..

career workshop:D

2009-05-09T23:29:00.011+08:00

woah..reportin time 7.30am..woke up at 7am..sad..arrived late..lucky not e lastest..haha..pasted up all e banners we drew for e past few days..turned out kinda nice..lol..but theres one guy who kept comin to our booth to 'complain'-.-hes servin as e head of security for ncc..but hes workin in e army..n he kept sayin we drew all symbols for civil service..but juz left out 'his' army's symbol..haha..soriz:)anw took few pics..anw halfway thru e first 'service'..my contact lens cracked mysteriously..so rushed to a optometrist straight durin e lunch break..anw i spent half e day bein one eye monster..right eye contact confirm cant use..so i threw it away..n guess wat..1 stupid eye check cost $40..n its not even confirmed tat they wil hav wat i need..wth!!rather go blind for half a day then go back to my usual optometrist..zzz..

bought a bible from e rock bookstore b4 i left..present for mummy tmr:Dhope she lik it:D

anw i went to bjorn's place first before headin down to tampines 1 tgt..(picked up glenn on e way)..then call eugene n einar down to pei us walk walk..then i rmb some1 tellin me theres a disney store in tampines 1..so wif no further ado..MCKY!!HERE I COME!!lol..spent lik near half hr inside..wantin to buy everything inside..haha..but thou i want them..i gotta face reality..super ex sia..need or want!!?of cuz need lah..thou theres a watch tats realli nice..but $62..sad:(anw after lik 5mins of battle..e boys finally manage to drag me out of my lala 'disney' land!:(oh well..meetin grandma for early mother's day..so gotta go:)seriously..after today..ill nv go eat in soup restaurant again..anw its been a long day..need go sleep liao..gd nites:)

week update>.<

2009-05-08T16:19:00.016+08:00

tis whole week too busy..so time for a brief update-.-

duno wat to say..but life has been hectic..haven got enough sleep for e whole week>.<

TUESDAY:)

met up wif joan in rp before headin down to suntec lvl 6 to help out in e deco prep for sat's career workshop..since im in a business course..i was assigned to do e civil services deco..wats e link man-.- anw gettin more sleepy by e moment..guess a pic speaks a thousand words..so heres a preview:D

THURSDAY:D

im hangin on a thread of my life on e verge of dyin, sinkin into a world of eternal darkness a.k.a boredom, floatin up towards heaven cuz i cant take it anymore..zzz..stupid science rj today..do u tink u are hangin, sinkin or floatin today?-.-

btw..juz an insight for those whos not in my class..we always 'take orders' and write on a piece of paper for those whos goin downstairs to help us tapao..n below is wat kishore wrote..ill treat e person who guessed tat word ive circled up right.."pochu"..lol..ans in e tagbox..no participation allowed from W35K!!

supposed to hav SA preview meetin on today..but decided to 'pon' it to go suntec help out again..afterall spendin my time servin in e house of God is much better than goin to listen to some nonsensical talk-.-but anw..due to our team's high efficiency..we finished first n spent quite awhile lookin for stuffs to do from..nothing..lol..anw we did some stuffs..so as to not look so odd..haha:D btw..i drew this..n others too..but only take 1 pic..lol

FRIDAY:p
theres cg today..but too bad not in rp..its all e way down at kallang noel corporate buildin..sad..for e travellin time..but its good in a way..cuz i get to meet my cg members..haven seen them for lik a week..baka linus justin n ppl who nv go..lol..leave me alone..thou i noe im nv a soloist..cuz He is forever wif me..hehe..anw i felt lik faintin durin pnw for unknown reasons..stumbled out of e room n fell on e floor..cg came out to check on me n prayed tgt..tks God im fine..tks amy too..
need sleep le..after a week of insufficient sleep..it wil be e same for tonite..zzz..need wake up early tmr too..career workshop tmr..reportin 7.30am..haiz..anw gd nitez:)

emo-in..again:(

2009-05-04T23:31:00.005+08:00

been 10days since we spoke..both of us had e same character..either we take a step back tgt..or not budge at all..haiz..i realli wish tis situation cease to exist..wat if tmr one of us is gone from here forever..everythings a possibility..if you're e one to leave..ill be fine..or at least ill force myself to be fine..ill can live wif e wound in my heart..forever uncured..but wat if its me to leave..then im juz missin out on our time we can spend tgt..i dun wana leave any regrets behind..i dun wana leave U behind..came home quite early today..smell u cookin outside e house..saw u cookin when i entered..smell it again when i closed my room door..in e past whenever u cook..almost always theres a asst. chef behind u..yet tis time round e asst. chef couldnt find any courage to step into e kitchen..stayed in my room till 11+..when u went to bed..i went out to e dinin table to see wat u cooked..thou its juz simple home cooked food..i juz felt so sad..thou im not e least hungry..n its lik so late in e nite..i juz felt lik finishin everything..went to e kitchen n took some rice then e dishes..went back to my room n close e door again..thou e food is cold..i could feel ur love in it..then i felt two streams goin down by cheeks..again..haiz..guess i better stop here..hope e next time i post everything will be over..

yea!!guitar club!!

2009-04-28T23:26:00.005+08:00

i hav developed a new habit recently..sleepin on buses..since e first time(okay..not realli first time..but atleast in tis period of time)..as in tat day i rode wif linus justin shengxian to tampines..ive been sleepin in every bus i took..fri nite bus 29(refer to my previous post)..sat morn bus home from tampines after chalet..mon bus after sch..today bus after sch..zzz..hope i can be more awake..but praise God..ive nv slept in class to date..haha..
haiz..gettin more accustomised to rp now..at least in my subconcious mind i noe im a student..not e 'idler' ive been for e past 6mths..i guess on e bright side it can be considered a good thing..haiz..i realli hate the questionin time after e presentation!!i dun mind presentin..but everytime durin e questionin time there wil be some 'act cute' ppl askin some questions which is so freakin obvious..haiz..worse still..they wil giv me those kind of weird looks n keep tellin me 'lax'..makes me wonder if im e one who said loads of wrong stuffs or talkin in a tone way too serious..anw..spoke it over wif few classmates..some encountered e same problem wif me..n some dun realise i actually mean them too..but oh well..each of us hav our own viewpoints..may all these problems be solved..n we shall be a united class..
anw after sch today..went venturin around e ig booths wif few classmates..in agora hall 4 were igs from sit..sas..seg..soh..shl..i guess..actually i also not sure..but shld be it..anw ive no interest in them..so y rmb..haha..opp agora hall 4(dun rmb which agora hall isit alr:P) are all e sports ig..wanted to join a sports ig(to loss fats)..but too bad..nothing interest me again..haiz..so we walked out to e corridor..all e ccc ig booths are out there..e first booth tat caught my classmates n my attention was jcg(japanese cultural group)..so after some enquiries(i seriously forgot wat we talked about..but half e time i wasnt listenin:P)..we wrote down our details..n hurried along to SA..which is two booths away..been lookin at it since my classmates are askin bout jcg..student ambassadors are something lik e saikang doin student body..but oh well..used to doin such stuffs in sec sch..so i left my details for it too..for those who are confused y can sign up for so many..they wil only inform us bout whens e briefin..we can then decide which to join after goin for e briefin..besides..theres no limit to e num of igs we can join..as long as we tink we can cope..10 is not a prob..(but im not crazy!!!)..anw after walkin a little further more..my eyes suddenly became fixed on three words..'no experience needed!'..guess wat..tats e ig i most wanted to join..thou i thot tat chances was slim..guitar club!!no experience needed!!wow!!in e first place some of my seniors told me guitar club needed auditions..only those who can play e guitar beforehand could join..but now..woohoo..no experience needed!!tis is e club im joinin!!haha..i guess im gettin a little repetitive here..haha..anw..guitar club!!yeah!!!
rite..tats all for today..so..nitez..sweet dreams..God bless..tata:D

poly cluster chalet!!<33

2009-04-25T23:49:00.004+08:00

yay!!todays arrow's poly cluster chalet!!but holy crow!!wats up wif todays faci!!?haiz..theres lik so much stuffs to be done..rj..quiz..evaluation..worksheetS..haiz..stayed in sch till 7 to finish up..when the meetin time is 6.30 at tampines..2 diff corners of singapore at 2 diff time..haiz..rush all e way down to changi(tks tako 贾斯丁 maomao pei me take bus to tampines:)..to get to e chalet..only can take 29..but e point is..which stop shld I drop??haiz..based on my intuition I randomly got down at 1 of e stop..guess wat..i realised im lost!!haiz..after some random walkin..i took the world most convenient public transport when lost..n lik 2 secs after I got on e taxi..i saw e sign to get to fairy point chalet 7..haiz..by e time I reached..guess how much I paid??$2.80!!!e meter didn’t even jump at all..haiz..
arrived there too late..by e time I settled down..they were all preparin e next activity alr..so we separated into cgs n went upstairs n started our 'cg meetin'..anw someone in my cg forgot to do her rj..n she was lik so frantic e whole time..she thot she could hav done it durin the free time we had..but she forgot there was no internet connection to submit her work..but tks god it was resolved..amen!!
After e fellowship..all of us met in e field to prepare for e next activity..treasure hunt..each cg was given a list of bible verses..then by choosin 1 of it..we were to find e items n save e hostages..n we decided to search for mosquito coils..anw bout half time..all cgs started to cheat..when we found something tat wasn’t wat we wan..we shld leave it back..but many other cgs took it n asked for a swop..haiz..but we only had 3 mosquito coils..n most stuffs tat we found isnt wat we wanted..anw in e end e coords told us to hand all e stuffs tat we had..n we realised tat wat we needed was not mosquito coils..but 2 more baygons..zzz..anw we were supposed to come up wif a advertisment for wat we found..it was totally hilarious..mr baygon!!lol..anw e bible grp won!!congrats..
after e treasure hunt..we all went back to our own rooms n washed up..woots..rpcg gals got 1 room to ourselves..haha..n theres a hidden toilet outside e balcony..so we kinda took our time thou others was queuin up for other toilets outside..haha..soriz..few gals in my cg had a random likin for hair dryer n they started helpin everyone blow their hair dry..haha..e whole process was funny..anw one by one we started fallin asleep..n I was lik one of e lastest..i slept at bout 4.30am..but I was e lastest to wake up too..tink I got up bout 7am..zzz..n I felt ppl pokin me..haiz..
anw after packin up we left e chalet..movin on to tampines mac to hav breakfast..then we walked back to e bus interchange to take bus home..in between e walkin time..they started askin bout my age..n when I said 16..they were lik wah..i so young..lik 小妹妹..lol..maybe..but im not tat young..okay..maybe compared to u all..i am young!!haha:D
reached home bout 10.30am..took a second bath while waitin for com to turn on..then watched some vids tat ive missed out..updatin my info on e entertainment news..lol..anw..by 1+ I was alr on my bed..huggin my beloved bear..goin into dreamland..lol..i woke up lik 11pm..haha..super shiok..anw..tats all for now:)

e thought of doin 'it' again..!!

2009-04-23T18:27:00.013+08:00

i noe u wun read tis..but still..i noe its a very stupid thot..n it shldnt even be part of my options..but e thot of endin my life isnt e first time tat passes thru my mind alr..but everytime i pauses to tink back..wat could i not leave behind??sch life??i cant wait to leave e disastrous place!!family??who needs a crappy one lik mine!!friends??who will miss me when i dun hav any to begin wif!!its u!!i realli wonder if i left before u..i realli duno how are u goin to carry on wif ur life..becuz of tat..when i held a knife on my skin..seein blood flowin slowly..i quickly dress my wound..its becuz it hurts..not my body..but my heart..when im sick n takin med..i always contemplate takin few more..goin to sleep n nv wakin up..but tinkin of u kissin me goodnite..n not bein kiss me anymore..tat thot scares me..afraid tat u wil follow my footsteps..a few times when i was by e window still..wantin to climb on it..i would take a step back n remind myself..no matter how bad can life be..i would hav to continue..all becuz i couldnt bear to tink of u livin without me!!but now im realli very confused..if i shld hav done it on e spot all e times i had n stop all problems happenin now!!or shld i juz continue fakin a smile n face everyone else til my time is up!!?these past years our arguements had all been initiated by u..i dun deny its partly my fault..but i realli dun understand u..juz e way u dun understand me!!whenever u come to 'talk' to me..when i keep mum to ur sarcastic 'qns'..u wil say u're talkin to e wall..yet when i reply u..u wil say im so rude tat u will nv wana bother bout me animore..then wat do u wan me to do!!?everytime when u tell others bout me..its always nothing good..when i jokingly reply sayin tats not true..u wil say im stubborn n refuse to admit my mistakes..yet i say im sorry..u will juz brush it off sayin i said it unwillingly..then while walkin along e streets..u will start 'talkin to urself' at e top of ur lungs..scoldin all kinds of vulgaries..so wat u wan me to do!!!?im realli tired..so tired tat i wana rest..rest forever in a place where i cant hear ur screamin..cant hear ani voices..yet i noe its a very irresponsible thot..i wun be able to leave u..there are many things tat i dun wana say..everytime u say something..do something..i always hav loads of things to tell u..but juz lik e past..with no1 to share these with..it always goes back down..to a place so deep in my heart tat i force myself to forget..i juz hope tat tis wil not continue on..17 years..its takin a toil on me..sooner or later i gonna snap..i dun wana end my life in a way tat i wil regret..but u are e only consideration i hav..do u noe at tat moment juz now when i knew its gonna happen again..e first thing tats crosses my mind was e same as always..i wana call someone out to vent everything..but even without scrollin down my hp list..i realise tat e results wil be e same as always..theres no1 i can call at all..can only spent e nite at east coast again..alone..cryin my heart out..screamin my lungs out..ventin my frustrations out for e sea to hear!!

wats up wif me>.<

2009-04-22T06:23:00.005+08:00

slept at bout 1am last nite..suddenly woke up around 2am..haiz..after goin back to sleep..i woke up around 3am again..tis repeated lik 3-4 times til im super irritated so decided not to go back to sleep..haiz..surfin the net aimlessly for 3hrs til i went to sch..met linus on e way..tks for e bag..haha:D
todays bout enterprising skills..n the first activity for everyone was to take a personality test..its kinda accurate..atleast for me..so here goes..btw..im an idealist..lol..

"As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.
INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves
INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.
Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.
INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.
INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".
When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.
INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.
INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.
INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkward and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.
INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs. "

anw..super sleepy..tats all for today..Zzz..

negative thoughts:(

2009-04-20T16:48:00.015+08:00

haiz..e same thing is happenin again..last time it was primary sch..then its secondary sch..n juz when im worryin about my poly life..e same thing happened in another grp..in e past whenever ani1 wanted to do something..they will definitely follow along..yet it might not be e case for me..n today..e first day of my sch..we were actually suppose to meet near central..but halfway thru lesson someone sms me sayin we wil be meetin for dinner in someone's sch..shich happens to be mine too..juz when i was feelin puzzled y e sudden change since most of them are studyin near central..someone replyed sayin its bcuz they wanted to meet russel for dinner but he is alr meetin HIS cg..hey..his cg is my cg..yet they didn’t even consider bout me..to tink i actually thot they could be e 1st bunch which i can lay back on if theres any prob n vice versa..tats y i chose to join them instead of cg..guess ive been on a wrong mindset all along..they can meet at yck cuz 2gals is studyin there..we can wait for some ppl for so long cuz they lost his way..we can meet to go all e way to the west cuz e MINORITY stays there..not tat i need all to go accordin to my wishes..neither am i complainin how inconvenient it is for me..but haiz..tat realli shows how IMPT am i to e grp..i bet if not for russel..i would hav to go all e way down to central again today..n might even need to make a u-turn back to my sch..isit my fault tat i seems a little over matured for my age..or too strong an attitude tat i can hide my darkest emotions so tat others cant see thru me..or bcuz it seems as if im fine wif every decision to e extent tat they no longer ask for my opinions??i might seem very free to turn almost everytime they wana meet..but did it ever cross their mind how many other stuffs i got waitin for me..i rather burn midnight oil doin it..yet meet them durin e afternoon..tats cuz i cherish e friendship we share..but i guess im e only one who cares..or atleast cares e most..
while waitin for 5.30 to arrive..my mind keeps repeatin a qns 1001 times..shld i remain where i am now??thou im wif my cg..i surrounded by 'unfamiliar' ppl..ppl who I knew yet talkin among themselves..im juz by a corner alone..wif no1 botherin about me..wats e point of stayin here..wats e point waitin for a grp tat takes me for granted to turn up..haiz..too many negative qns in me tat i tink theres only 1 simple ans..they juz simply dun understand me..they juz didn’t tink tat ill be so affected bout it..oh well..i gone thru so much more than them..thou we are of e same age..i guess their tinkin juz remains seventeen..'pure'n simple..haiz..ill juz keep broodin over matters..even thou i know its bad n uncalled for..but it juz brings back memories..bad memories..but to a certain extent i juz cant ignore tis feelings n thoughts..haiz..n e reason they came to rp was bcuz they wanted to join russel for dinner wif HIS cg..yet he dissapeared wif e reason 'tired' b4 they even turn up..make it look lik they are here to join me..'lol'..i wonder if i shld laugh it off or not..n e person who suggested e meetin left even b4 we decided where to eat..not tat im blamin her..but there are definitely others who are tired too..but if everyones so tired tat we cant even last an hr tgt..then dun plan a dinner outin..i ended sch at 3.30..i waited til 6+ near 7..bet none of u felt tat im not in a very good mood..at most felt tat im a little tired..haiz..i should hav gone home n hav a better rest rather than reachin home lik near 11 n sleepin at 2am(tats e time now!)..haiz..looks lik im back to square one..days wif only 2ppl in my life..Jesus..n my mummy..haiz..i guess I better stop here..dun wana hav tears flowin down while pics of e past comes flashin back..

mummy baptised today!! :D

2009-04-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

omg..woke up late..again..haiz..wanted to meet linus for 1st..but guess i cant make it by now..haiz..oh well..so decided to go tgt wif mummy at e same time..but she went for hokkien service while i rushed all e way to audi..by the time i went in e audi was lik alr almost full..but guess wat..i randomly saw a hand wavin in e air n when i looked tat way..i saw a mother of a child in ak1..lol..n juz beside her was a empty seat..haiz..she was lik so far away..doubt ill get tat seat..but wow..when a person wanted to sit..he suddenly left..then it dawn on me..she actually told e guy e seat was taken..lol..when i walked over..she told me i looked as if i needed a seat..lol..juz in time..n service started..pastor lian's sermon's e same..full of laughters..

after service i rushed all the way back to e convention center to meet my family..n all of them were waitin for me..haiz..got a whole lot of naggin voices why cant i juz go to gallery west for service..haiz..but oh well..my uncle drove us all to ymca..thou i guess we did arrive a little too early..only few angmohs sun-tannin by th pool..but lets skip e details..e main point was..i saw sara n erin there..lol..both their relatives are also goin to be baptised..lol..such a coincidence..haha..

anyway..juz back from dinner..haiz..tmr first day of sch..wish all be well:)

woohoo!most alive arrow!!

2009-04-18T23:50:00.007+08:00

omg..supposed to meet lihua at 1.30 go bugis buy thing de..but now alr 1.15 le..need hurry..but when i reached mrt at 1.25 after runnin at my top speed..i realised something super impt!!!I FORGOT MY WALLET!!haiz..gotta chiong all the way back home to take my stupid wallet..haiz..then here i go again..run all e way back to mrt to rush to braddell..haiz..finally reach there..but wow..lihua nv scold me..so rare..haha:D

after walkin for near 2hrs..we still cant find e shirt i wan..n in e 2hrs i bought a pearl milk tea..guess how much it costed..$2.50!!!..wat e..i could buy 2cups elsewhere!!haiz..i alr ordered..so let it be..anyway we decided to change our destination to suntec city..but after reachin city hall mrt..she suddenly say she wana go buy sushi n go home..so i bought 2 handrolls for myself n made my way to e rock alone..haiz:(

juz b4 arrow started i ate one box of my sushi..when e announcements were on>.<e endin praise n worship is so cool..its lik e most hyper arrow service ive been to after 4mths in it!!yeah!!hope it wil remain lik tat..most of my cg members went to e front..tats lik so cool..God is movin..n He rocks the house down man!!woohoo!!

after arrow i went around wif e 3 guys(liney potato n maomao)to see laptops..but i guess i wun be getter a new one in e near future..so oh well..then we met e cg for dinner..but in e end i also nv eat..played bingo wif e others..i got 4 lines for almost every game..but left 1 num some1 sure will bingo..haiz..anw we 4 left b4 e others..potato n maomao pangsei us..so liney n me went to wait for e bus..but we missed e first..so i decided to go into e convention center to grab a drink..but in e end e shop close alr..n we missed e 2nd bus..haiz..got home lik 1 haf hr..Zzz..

anw..goin sleep le..nitez..yawn..Zzz..

orientation rundown..

2009-04-17T23:23:00.009+08:00

wah..after 3days of orientation..i nearly died of boredom n awkwardness..haiz..oh well..giv u all a breakdown of my 3 super busy days now..
Day1!!
e first grp of ppl i saw made me wana die on e spot..ahh..y am i in e same sch wif e ppl i despised most in sec sch!!?mind u..when i say sch..its not rp..its sit(school of infomations n communications technology)..haiz..even closer..lucky we are all not in e same class..or i guess ill be skippin sch more than i expect..haiz..
after a long openin speech by my sch director..which i duno wat name..we finally got started on e 'presidents cup challenge'..40 games stations!!all around rp!!holy s***!!n guess wat..i thot e 1st day was lecture..so i wore jeans..long jeans!!haiz..in e end i sweated as if im a 'linus'..sianz.
met up wif dg for dinner at yck..was late cuz orientation ended late..ate near half of linus food..mind u..he offered to me kay..but when we were done..they suddenly decided to follow siying back to woodlands(tats where i came from) for dinner..but oh well..after a long day..i left them first to go home n rest..prepare for e next day..
Day2!!
n e 'president's cup challenge' continues..oh well..played few more games b4 it ended..then theres some tug of war thingy..im not even takin part in it..yet i need to be out in e field to absorb vitamin D..haiz..did a few more meaningless stuffs..thou i did closer to my orientation grp..atleast something good happened..lol..
met up wif dg again..but tis time at woodlands..i arrived causeway point bout 5..but when everyone appeared in time for time..it was alr near 7..haiz..after returnin justin's book from e library(shld loan from me..i got e whole series at home..lol)..we went to ajisen ramen to eat..at first linus justin n me did a dissapearin act for bout 10mins cuz we didnt feel lik eatin there(e food is ex!!)..but we still went back in the end..after dinner we went to an it shop for darren to buy a mem stick reader to 'loan' it to me til he somehow remember to bring it on our 'next' outin..since we still didnt feel lik goin back so soon..we went to comics connection n john little to shop around..man wat a bad move..we were literally 'thrown out' of the store..at comics connection..thou we were not allowed to take pics in the store..we did tat so openly to e extent e shop owner stood only 1 bookcase away from us..in e end we juz hurried out of e store n proceed to john little..yet almost e same thing happened again..we were takin pics of linus wif a pink care bear..lol..he look lik he is camouflaged wif e care bear..haha..but when we started on a mini 'bear' fight..e saleswoman came to tell us to stop..so we soon left in case any more 'throw face'thing is gonna happen..zzz..well..too tired e moment i left john little so went home straight..zzz..in the end still sleep very late>.< Day3!!
started my day wif my class..W35K..haiz..stupid com got prob..cant do anything at all..shouldnt hav carried it all the way to rp..sianz..boring day today..i sweateds lik so much..in order for rp to take a stupid vid to upload on their blog..all of us had to stand in e sun crowd in a 20x20 cm while e others(non-freshmans) are under shelter or in aircon..haiz..n e vid is not even out..btw..bout e 'president cup challenge'..sas got 1st..congrats..sit duno at where..haiz..anyway after a crazy 'jammin' session..went home immediately..super tired..after bathin..first thing i do is to drop on my beloved bed n go into my lala land..Zzz..mumble..ni..te..ez..Zzz..

new tv -.-

2009-04-13T23:55:00.010+08:00

well..i promised someone to giv a brief rundown of my previous week..so here goes..
monday: on e net since i woke up(tats 1pm) til 5.30..went to hall to watch mickey clubhouse on disney playhouse..but stupid tv busted around 5.55..tks God mickey mouse juz ended..haha..but oh well..there goes my tv..but afterall..its lik near 18 years old..old doesnt go..new doesnt come..haiz..
tuesday: mummy woke me up at 9.30..by pokin no less..went to various locations to compare prices of TVs..but when 2 ladies go shoppin..u noe..we ended up buyin quite a few stuffs..but still not decided on e tv..sianz..
wednesday: time of wakin up is gettin earlier n earlier..ello..nows my holiday..ive only 2weeks left..so let me enjoy 'my chess time wif zhou gong'(for those realli bad in chinese(read:linus, darren, etc)..tat means sleepin)..anw i was awaken at 8+ by an attack of pokin..again..went to scout for tv again..n we finally decided on 1..haha..tks God..then my mummy had a random thought n decided to change our tv cabinet too..so we went to check out a few stores..ordered a small table..mummy say will make our hall look bigger n brighter..our old set was black..haiz..
thursday: e tv cabinet arrived at 9am..wat e 'heaven'..consecutive 3days tat i woke up in e morn alr..worse still..both my parents not at home..so i settled e whole thing wif my eyes half close n huggin my mickey mouse..in e evenin before my daddy left for e airport he threw a pack of cigarette on my bed(cuz my mummy was on my bed)..n me bein super adverse to cigarette..i changed my bedsheet immediately..juz after i bathed..haiz..sweated again..so i bathed twice in an hour..sianz..but i found something under my bed tat was left forgotten long ago..another 1000pcs jigsaw puzzle-.-

today: new tv arrived at 10+..haiz..not enough sleep again..haiz..i wonder if we shld hav changed our tv cabinet in e first place..i kinda lik it..cuz its super huge tat it covers our whole wall..most imptly..its been wif me since day1 of my life..cant bear to see it gone..haiz..but oh well..its gone..now in place is a smaller tv cabinet..but a bigger tv..weird..haiz..when i came home juz now..i thot i walked into e wrong hse cuz something so huge is missin..haiz..

orientation tmr..hope my schoolmates will be nice..haiz..

-"Watch the Lamb"

my most 'throw face' day!!

2009-04-12T23:48:00.006+08:00

shock!!
omg..6.45a.m.!!why didnt my hp ring!!?wat e!!?conk up again!!?dammit!!oh well..rush out of hse!!tks God i arrived suntec convention center at 7.15..not late..not late!!not only tat..im e 2nd person to be there..1st is teacher noelle..atleast im kinda early..but $8 literally flew out of my wallet..i could hav took 133 down..stupid phone>.<
when my servin time ended today..teacher noelle suddenly said tats there insufficient boxes of clay for e children in e afternoon service to make their crosses..so she asked all admin helpers(tats me caleb n sara only) to stay n help wrap additional boxes for e afternoon batch..but at tat time we didn’t consider too much n showed her a glum face..wantin to leave alr..we had been there since early mornin n we were alr meetin others for lunch..but we didn’t tink back on her part..she did so much to prepare for tis day..plannin tis since few weeks ago..n now when something has gone wrong..none of us wanted to lend a helpin hand..she muz hav felt realli bad..so in e end i decided to stay behind to help her out..while e others went off 1st..but after countin e num of clays available..theres juz rite enough..so im not needed around-.- but they wanted help for other stuffs..so I juz hang around awhile n helped them wif some misc things..
finally not at 3rd alone after so many weeks..wif caleb sara n her 2 cousins..sat wif my mummy too..i wonder why..but i felt super cold e whole service today..even thou i did hav my jacket on..haiz..my cough has officially been around for 3weeks..is my health deterioratin again..haiz..gettin from bad to worse..tink i'll need e doctor tmr..pray tat i will be healed..in Jesus' name..amen!!
e endin song today was 'watch the lamb' by boltz ray..sung by sean today..around e mid song when clips of 'the passion' started playin..i started cryin uncontrollably..i didnt even noe wat struck me..but e worse thing was i couldnt stop all e way till i reach e food court at basement 1..imagine e places i passed by wif tat red cryin face n e loud sniffin noise!!OMG!!worse still..many ppl who i noe are all outside e rock..n almost all saw me..wat e..how am i suppose to show my face in front of them in e future!!?haiz..gg alr..
btw..i met e specific someone today..n he still didnt bring my mem card reader..so ive decided to ignore him til i get my thing back..i noe it seems a little bad on my side..but its been lik near a month..hope he doesnt make it a habit n do tis to others >.<

-"What've we seen here, There's so much that we don't understand,"
So I took them in my arms, We turned and faced the cross
And I said "Dear children Watch the lamb"

sunday service!!

2009-04-05T23:38:00.009+08:00

wow..its sunday again..e day to head down to suntec for e word of God!!its e perfect way to start my week..yet once again im alone for service!!ALONE!!how many weeks muz it continue lik tis!!?oh well..i shld realli start considerin goin for 4th service..thou its not realli convenient for me since im servin til 1pm onli..but still..
actually i typed a long(n when i say long..i realli mean LONG!!) paragraph bout my views on pastor prince's news..but after much consideration..i guess i better delete it since it isnt very positve..but..oh well..im stun for words..haiz..anw..haiz..
btw..i feel lik murderin a specific someone for returnin me my stuffs after holdin it for so long..for e fact tat e specific someone passed me some files tat i can actually dl off e net myself..yet not return me my mem card reader which i need to transfer my files into e device..so wats e point of passin me my thumbdrive may i noe!!? -.-
p.s.soriz..too sleepy since its way past midnight when i finish tis post..so i accidentally click 'save now'..tats y e post is up only today(9/4)..soriz..

-Without God we cannot, without us God will not.

arrow..hittin e mark!!

2009-04-04T23:44:00.010+08:00

met up wif dg for lunch today..thou im late again-.-
but anw..after lunch when we were window-shoppin..e stranger n her friend(read: mindy n yin lin) wanted to get something for a friend's birthday so we separated our ways..after walkin thru a passage wif a realli slow pace(mark my words..its realli wols)..i went into my fav shop in suntec..jigsaw world..n guess wat!!?i saw a new puzzle in there..its lik juz there for me to purchase it home..e moment i saw it i could alr picture it wif e exact position on my room's wall..but lo n behold..$131.90..i guess i gotta wait!!wait til a time which i also duno when..haiz..
woah..todays pre-service was so fun..so fun to e extent tat i dun even noe wat e 'heaven' was goin on..but juz a little dissapointed bout e sermon..kay..maybe its e pastor..at first before arrow service i thot it would be pastor dan preachin today..yet when service started it was pastor keith who went on stage..tat was e first time i heard him preachin..generally his preachin was kinda ok..juz tat he isnt tat sure of each service's sequence..but his laughter was super random n kinda weird..
at e beginnin of e sermon he gave out a 'destined to reign: daily devotional' by pastor prince..yet juz before service started i was tellin linus n darren i wanted tat book..at tat moment i was lik wow..its juz before my eyes..thou i didnt get it in e end(it went to a gal named nicola)..but i trust tat i wil hav tat book soon..for Jesus wil giv 1 to me so tat i can get to noe Him more n more..
after e service i went for dinner tgt wif my dg..still not much ppl came along..but at least no1 was missin..still e usual group.. linus.. darren.. justin.. sheng xian.. and me..we went to yakichi for dinner..then had dessert at mac..in e process of fillin our tummies..we crap bout so many topics..but nearly 75% of it revolved around 'hair'..haha..then we watched e vid edited by justin..it was so cool..very pro alr..shld take our suggestion n do a vid of 'byakuya n linus convo'..haha..btw sheng xian..u very hairy!!haha:D
well..before we went home..we went up to e fountain of wealth to take a group photo..then there was a guy who helped us snap a pic..he was lik so enthu..askin us if flash would be better or not..n if e pic was good enough or he could take another..well..u are e guy readin tis now..tks!!

omg!!its lik 3am alr..guess i better go sleep alr..since im servin tmr..thou its not my team..but servin e Lord is such a good thing tat i cant help but go as long as im free:)

-If you are holy (in Christ), you are walkin in plenty.

easter sunday!!

2009-04-03T23:44:00.011+08:00

hello people!!

do u all noe easter's comin soon??its next sunday..n its my team's turn to serve e Lord..tats y today Agape Kidz team B(bout 30+ ppl) hav all gathered at noel buildin(tats new creation's office) to prepare some art n craft stuffs for e kids..

guess wats e art n craft item they are goin to make??

packin in process..mind u..we packed 200+ of tis..

firstly are e lumps of clays which we estimated e amount needed by e kids to make 1 cross..
then we made e banners for them n wrote 'HE IS ALIVE' on it..200 of it..tats crazy..

n the end product..

its actually a cross with a banner in e center written 'HE IS ALIVE'..but since tis was my own..i decided to make it more 'uniquely adeline'..haha..n i added e hat specially for my cross..since it looked kinda plain wif only a flower..haha:)oh well..tats all for today..God bless:)

-Jesus multiplys e time we hav spent for Him!

april fools day!!

2009-04-01T23:09:00.013+08:00

happy april fools day everybody!!
did u trick ani1 today!?haha..i didnt..thou early in e morn i received a prank call from a friend..she call me at 11 cryin say she kena kick out of house n nowhere to go..n after worryin n consolin her for 15mins..when i was about to change n go look for her..she suddenly say "good mornin..happy april fools day!!"right here im tellin u..ITS NOT FUNNY!!
anw todays realli a borin day..nothing much happened..so i spent lik almost e whole day sleepin..haha..realli shiok sia..i woke up at 11..then after breakfast i started my com..surfed e net for few hrs..bout 5 i went to my bed to play ds..in less than 15mins i fell asleep..woke up around 9 for dinner..haha..man..i wonder if i shld say wat a good life i hav..or i completely hav no life!!?
for those who dun noe..i used to hav a chinese blog to publish some stuffs ive written..thou ive deleted it few years back..but some ppl suggested tat i shld continue postin my works up here..so i guess ill start wif one short story n see how it goes..thou its not top grade..but it all came from my unpredictable inspiration..so even if u dun lik it..pls dun criticise..but if its realli bad then let me noe..maybe ill stop postin it up..tks..
juz a short preface 1st..ill continue it when i need to keep my blog alive..(read: boring day)

《爱。回忆》

“其实我从高一时就已经喜欢你了，只是觉得当我们还是学生身份时还是努力读书比较好。而且在那时的环境里，根本分不清爱与喜欢。但经过了这几年的分开，你到了美国求学，而我却留在我们相识的地方继续守护我们共同拥有的回忆，如今我们俩都事业有成，各自有自己的一片天空，而现在的我也已经坚定了爱你的心，请你给我一个机会，和我在一起吧。”

这段话一直在我心里徘徊着，让我思考了一天一夜，‘他’是认真的吗?

alrighty then..til next time..hope tis story of mine can go on smoothly:)

-Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.

random trip to malaysia..

2009-03-30T23:50:00.019+08:00

woah..i cant believe today..juz a random phonecall change my whole schedule for e day..not tat its planned..but at least i was intendin to sleep till 1..n its pm i mean..quite a few things happened today..i tink splitin up e details will be easier to understand..
heres e deal: my aunt called my mummy to ask if she wanted to go to JB to shop around n buy some stuffs..so she came to my room n started attackin me wif her sure-win tactic(read: ticklin) to harass me to go wif her..n guess wat time was it!!?7.30!!its lik juz e endin of e day for me(note: i slept at 4+ previous nite)oh well..as a 100% filial daughter(and a very drowsy mind)..i promised to accompany her for e trip..but still..i managed to snag 2 more hrs of sleep..due to my constant '5mins more'..haha..kinda proud of myself:D

breakfast: my mummy n me met my aunt at mac early morn at 10+ for breakfast..n out of habit..i went to buy them breakfast while they continued their 'gossipin' of our family members..n something stunned me durin my convo wif e part-timer(i knew it bout a week ago..but it still shocked me cuz i've totally forgotten bout tis bad news..)

ade: "blah blah blah..n gimme a $2 breakfast.."

part-timer: "erm..sorry..but theres no such offer.."

ade: "huh..i mean e cheap breakfast which by payin lesser i get a cup of coffee or tea.."

part-timer: "oh..tat..its $2.50 breakfast alr.."

i literally stunned there!!nnnnnooooooo!!why increase its price??i could buy it wif juz 1 note in e past..n now i still need to specially 'fish' for a 50c..haiz..well..but in e end i still ended up eatin e $2(.50) breakfast..man..im gonna reject tat 50c in Jesus' name..for it wil be $2 again..amen!!

malaysia: e 1st time i took 950 into malaysia..my daddy always drove..or we will take a cab in if w/o him..but its e 1st time wif my aunt..n shes realli thrifty:( but wow..e new custom in malaysia is huge..n kinda clean(which is quite rare..no offences) then we walked to city square in JB to take a taxi to holiday plaza..(cuz my uncle's stayin in mutiara hotel for e week n we can rest there..) n e taxi fare's realli cheap..rm6 to get there..tats lik $2+ onli..less then our startin price..haha:D

aniway after walkin for very long..(n buyin stuffs enough to open a shop..most is theirs..im there to be e labourer)..we went to mac to hav a drink..n beside us was a little baby wif her mum n uncle..shes realli cute n kept laughin..i even treated her 1 of my choco cake..lik after 15mins..we went back to e hotel n took a rest..then we decided to leave to fill our tummy..then back to singapore..so off we go..headin towards our dinner destination..

restoran new lucky: we ordered a shark fin soup 1st..then followed by cod fish..flower crab..'spare ribs king'(tats direct translation..)..tats lik so much for 3ppl..halfway thru our dinner a stray dog wandered into e restoran n came beside my chair..its so cute tat i gave it a piece of meat..n he seems to enjoy it..haha:)

after contentin our stomachs..we started makin our way back to singapore..e custom's entrance by nite is kinda nice..n tks God for no traffic jam..or i would hav reached home lik 2+..haha

along e way home in e mrt..there was a guy playin his handheld console directly opp me..more imptly..his vol was at max..n tat totally irk me..yet when i was about to start discussin wif my mummy n aunt..they actually misinterpreted wat i meant n felt my point was wrong..then e whole journey home i was lik wtf..juz bcuz they dun understand wat i mean n 2 of them start 'reasonin' wif me to e extent tat i cant even voice out 1 sentence..so tat means im e most stubborn person on earth tat doesnt admit my wrong..wth!!
my viewpoint: i juz wanted to tell them tat guy's realli noisy n disturbin e everyone around him..its not about MY right n wrong..but its his fault..n as a responsible citizen he shldnt be doin tat..theres actually a earpiece around his neck..n when i 'traced' e wire's end..it actually lead to his lap..come on..he can juz put e audio jack in n listen to his own music..
their viewpoint: dun need be so kahpoh..juz keep to ourselves..if he's very noisy then its his prob..juz let it be..
conclusion: they keep sayin tat i 'cannot lose'..muz say til 'win'..but they are missin e point completely..
1st..im not even concerned bout e winnin n losin crap..wats e definition of winnin n losin tis anw..
2nd..i only wanted to discuss tis..not lik i wil go up to him n tell him to shut e music..yet they wanna start an arguement wif me..wif a conclusion tat they made themselves tat im ultra stubborn n keep insistin im right..but from e beginnin to end..i nv said im 100%right n they are 100%wrong..both hav their pros n cons..yet they wanna tink e worse of me..sad-ed..they are super over-reactin..maybe bcuz of our generation gap..all our tinkin are diff..when they are talkin bout other ppls character..they dun even tink back on themselves..is tat typical of adults!!?if tat is..i pray tat i wun hav tat trait in me incase some1 else say im stubborn again..:(

-Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.

here i come!!events team!!

2009-03-29T22:28:00.041+08:00

goosebumps shook thru my body e first thing i woke up today!

wat e..my mummy has done it again..n its only 8 in e morn..

haiz..y am i so much more sensitive to 'poke-in' than ani1 else??n y does my mummy uses tat method to wake me up always??yeah..i noe i told her to wake me up so tat i could be down to serve durin 2nd service..(but most imptly..i can take a free ride down to suntec..no need to rush..hehe:))but theres no need for such a drastic move..anyway i wash up lik haf hr after she tried wakin me..:P

btw..for those who dunno..i serve in my church's very own children ministry..ROCK KIDZ!!n im takin care of e 4yrs old little ones in AGAPE KIDZ!!they're realli cute n chubby!!*pinchy pinchy*

anyway..bout a week ago some1 sent me a sms which i was expectin for quite awhile..askin if i was able to meet her anytime on sunday when im goin for service..so yeah!!finally no more waitin!!shes a leader from my church's youth ministry's events team..n she wanted to meet me to ask some qns bout y i wanted to apply to serve in events team(yea..i did tat durin e recruitment drive bout a month ago..)but anyway i dun realli rmb wat she said..wif e exception of e last few sentences..
leader: "when do u tink u can start servin??"
ade: "oh well..i hav nothing much better to do at home anw..so i guess..anitime??"
leader: "okay..great..then some1 from events will call u sometime tis week for meetings.."
ade: "oh..okay..tks"

then i left for service..wif a weird feelin in my heart..wow..so im now officially in events team!!?haha..thou im a little sad im in arrow events..not dare..but still..its a good thing to serve e Lord..regardless which dept am i in:)

Pastor Prince preached bout 'e garments of e high priest part 3' today..(well..i guess i wun be postin it up..but if u wana find out more..u can always check my links..theres always ppl who will post it up)but aniway my main point here is..i attended service today alone!!ALONE!!haiz..wats goin on!!?is my dg destined to 'shirei'(note: tat means scatter)!!?no1 in my dg attended 3rd today!!maybe i shld start joinin my cg for 4th so tat i wun be left alone for sunday services??
guys!!do u all still rmb tat we said b4 we wanna stick tgt as a group of friends..even if we are no longer in 'dare'..we can still remain friends after gettin to noe our cg..it wouldnt hurt to hav 2 cliques..dun go to 'arrow' n join ur cg then forget bout dg..do u all still rmb when is our last outin!!?its 2 tuesdays ago..n not everyone was there:(

haiz..nothing much happened today..juz a roller coaster ride for my mood..from excited cuz i got into events..to dissapointment in my dg tat we didnt meet up for very long..but still..a day has past..n i thank God tat its a blessin to live thru today..for there are ppl who will nv see tmr..but my tmr will be better..amen!

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oh well..juz a random con't of my previous post..intro to u all my 2 fav collections..hehe..

1st is my manga collection..i tink i've nearly $1000 worth of mangas in there..ani1 wana rent??i charge realli cheap!!ask me for details:)

p.s. darren, if u are readin tis now..try lookin closely at e pic..u might find something tat interests u..

2nd is my jigsaw collections..i love doin jigsaws since young..my friends always say i hav overwhelmin patience to do such stuffs n finish it so fast..(i take averagely 4-5hrs to finish a thousand piece jigsaw:)

tis is e 1st jigsaw i did..a birthday gift..thou it looks small..but dun doubt..its 1000pcs..

can u find ur own zodiac(or horoscope)??soriz its slanted..need to avoid e flash..its still in thou:(

diff versions of mickey mouse!!

mickey n minnie's wedding in a church!!so romantic!!

wish mine would be in a church in europe..juz e 2 of us..its gonna be so..*shakes head!!stop dreamin!!*

my 1st n last(for now)2000pcs jigsaw!!(thou it looks a tad too small in e pic..)

x'mas present from my daddy last year:)

tats all folks..i guess theres something realli very obvious from e pics..i realli love mickey mouse..he's so cute..haha..anw..till next time..

p.s. Ps. Julia went on a date ytd..happy for her..but sad for our church..hope she wun go to indo even if things work out!!hey guys!!Ps.Prince alr said.."e lines are open now!!"..so go!!haha!!

-God bless!!(wear linen and) stay cool!!:D

its finally here!!

2009-03-28T16:26:00.032+08:00

YO!!
Finally started a blog after procrastinating it for 2 years..should i intro myself first in case a random person stumble upon this blog of mine??yeah..maybe i should..so here goes..
My name is ade(tats short for adeline..) and im livin in a tiny red dot (check e map if u duno..but tat would juz mean u're a caveman for not knowin Singapore..oops..did i juz say it out!??).
I have quite a huge extended family..n much probs tat follows it..but i wun be postin anything about it for now(dun wana dampen e mood here)..perhaps in e future when i feel lik sharin..i might share bit by bit..
I have a great bunch of church friends who i regularly hang out with..thou i can sense we are driftin further apart due to diff schools we are studyin or about to enrol in..still i hope tis group will stick together..afterall it took us more than awhile to get to know each other so much..shared so many memories tat others cant understand..n e love we share for our Lord Jesus!
After graduating from secondary school near half year ago..i hardly kept in contact with any schoolmates..well..perhaps only one..n im realli thankful to her for remindin me tat i did have a secondary school life..or maybe i shouldn't have remembered them..afterall i had my worse years of my life in sec sch..now tats something i realli dun wana rmb..but still..who knows if i might post about it in e future..as e sayin goes 'facin e problem is better than runnin away from it'..thou its quite a depressin thought..but in a way or another i learned many life lessons n understand many logics which my peers would never understand at tis age..
As most might realise from above..yup..im a child of God!!n tats realli an extraordinary feelin..to know tat Jesus is always with me..no matter where i am..no matter wat i do..no matter how i sin(but tats a thing of past)..im livin in e word of God n temptations of e devil to me are invalid..no man on earth is sinless..only with 1 exception..JESUS CHRIST!but it was He who suffered everything(!!) for us on e cross..givin us e best thing we can ever ask for..a ticket to heaven..to everlastin happiness..and if u wanna find out more bout e abba father of thousands n millions around e world..u can check out e link to NEW CREATION CHURCH!! for it is my home church n im proud to be in it!!however..if u are not on e little island im on..u can always check out a local church..im sure u will definitely enjoy e journey of overflowin grace in ur life with a new found friend..CHRIST JESUS!!
i created tis blog juz to remind myself of wats goin on in my life..to blog on my past problems??to blog on my new happenings??aniway i wun be considerin too much on wat to blog..ill juz follow my feelin n blog on wat i wan..hope u will enjoy tis crazy journey of my life as much as urs with our eternal savior!!

-I'm in this world..yet not of the world.